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He is living in the northern part of the Netherlands, and he has meanwhile become a medical doctor. His identity no longer revealed on this website for reasons of privacy. His identity was revealed . . . → Read More: Carlo, the Netherlands]]> Carlo has been treated with NPL healing for 3,5 years. Lots of emotional, physical and study problems have been solved.

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Carlo introduces himself (the end of October 2006) Several short introduction films in which Carlo introduces himself and talks about his most important problems.
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My name is Carlo, I live in the northern part of the Netherlands. On the website of Linda Evans I saw an announcement in which she stated that she was looking for candidates to film the proceeding of a treatment with NPL healing.
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Marnyka had gained 34 kg in the past few years. She felt reluctant to do physical exercises. She was an emotional eater: whenever she was anxious or worried about something, she ate. She turned to food to keep her company. She was addicted to bread and chocolate. When she felt stressed out, she had the tendency to eat chocolate.

She was also addicted to reality TV.

Marnyka had pain in her joints. She didn’t have much stamina, she was easily tired and out of breath. She had an inferiority complex about her weight. She was embarrassed to leave the house.

She also had feelings of inferiority about her skin colour. She felt that, as an African-American woman, she constantly had to prove herself.

She was very sloppy. She didn’t like cleaning, which her husband undertook.

She didn’t have much willpower. She started something with enthusiasm, but after a few weeks, her enthusiasm was gone. She always postponed everything and she didn’t finish things. She could only carry on with something for 20 minutes at the most.

She was lazy. She liked to sit in a sofa and do nothing when she was at home. She had difficulty getting started with something when someone else didn’t incite her to action, also at work.

She was a chemical engineer. She worked full-time, but she didn’t like doing her job anymore. She never met the deadlines at work. She suffered from mood swings at work. She behaved dominant and bossy towards the people who worked for her.

She had difficulty letting go of annoying things. She was unable to let go of things from the past either. Things that happened kept on turning in her head. She worried easily. She had the tendency to expect the worst from the start. She still regretted things from the past. She had difficulty forgetting and forgiving and she had feelings of revenge towards her former employers.

She needed to tell everything that happened around her, and her husband was her sounding board.

When she was alone, without her husband, she sometimes felt depressed. It was difficult for her to make friends. She needed a lot of attention from her husband. She attached too much importance to other people’s opinions of her.

Some days, everything went wrong from the moment she woke up.

She had difficulty saying no.

When she was talking to others, she was too much focused on herself.

She could not always admit she was to blame for something, and then she blamed others.

She easily judged people. She was prejudiced against people who were less well-off.

She lacked a sexual desire for her husband. She had a problem with vaginal dryness during sex.

She didn’t have much energy, every activity was quite a task. She was often tired. She was allergic to mold, dust, pollen, grass, animals.

She often had a stuffed up nose. She had painful cramps before and during menstruation. She had a dry skin and fragile hair, her hair fell out. She was always thirsty and her skin was very dry and itchy.

Results

Marnyka was able to eat less and her eating habits had improved. She no longer had the tendency to go and buy meals. She felt full faster when she ate, she stopped eating as soon as she felt she had eaten enough. She was no longer addicted to bread and less addicted to chocolate.

She was better able to be alone at the weekend when her husband had to work and she didn’t turn to food anymore to feel less alone. Instead of eating, she was able to give more attention to her son and she went out walking more, she had more physical exercise. She could get herself to do do gymnastics.

She no longer had feelings of inferiority about the colour of her skin, and she no longer felt she had to prove herself because of her skin colour.
She was able to accept herself, she was able to accept her weight. She didn’t care as much anymore about what others thought of her size.

She was able to be engaged in a task for longer, she didn’t postpone things as much anymore. She didn’t give up as easily anymore. She had more energy. She didn’t experience the things she had to do as an assignment. She cleaned up more, so that her husband had to do less. She was less lazy, she only seldom sat in the sofa doing nothing.

She had more appreciation for her work, which made it easier for her to get through the day. She no longer suffered from mood swings at work, she could easily get things done. She particularly postponed less at work, she took more the initiative and she was able to finish her schedule on time.

It no longer happened that things went wrong from the moment she woke up.

She clearly had a greater desire for sex with her husband and she no longer suffered from vaginal dryness.

Her nose was not stuffed up as often anymore. Her skin was less dry and her hair loss had disappeared. She wasn’t thirsty all the time anymore. She had less pain in her joints and she had no more allergies.

Her addiction to reality TV had gone.

She could make the first move after an argument to make things up, this was something new to her. Things that happened, didn’t keep on turning in her mind anymore. She was able to let go of things from the past and she no longer made a drama out of things. She was able to forgive and forget, she was no longer tense when there were problems, she was no longer depressed or lonely.

She was able to appreciate herself more, she loved herself more. She felt less easily judged by others. She felt less stressed out because of her weight or by money problems. She was better able to say no to someone who wanted to sell something to her.

She could better accept people in general, she judged and condemned people much less.

In general, she was less worrisome and she could picture things in a more positive way instead of always expecting the worst.

She could better deal with her son’s tantrums. She was less dominant and impatient. She could better accept it when others made their own choices. She was able to admit it when she was wrong. She didn’t need to tell everything that had happened to others or to her husband. She was less meddlesome. She could better listen to others and she was less focused on herself in conversations.

She could make friends more easily. She was more spontaneous and friendly towards strangers.

She no longer cared as much about other people’s opinions of her, and she was no longer out to get compliments or confirmation.

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This book is about revolutionary discoveries concerning our human existence and the subconscious mind. Author Linda Evans has extrasensory perception that enables her to perceive the subconscious mind around man in a physical . . . → Read More: Book: “Man and animal, victims of their subconscious mind, and the way to freedom”]]> NPL SELF DEVELOPMENT

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14        Storage of the matter of the patterns

Every time something negative occurs, that incident is stored in the patterns. In this way, the layers continue to build up. The patterns are not activated in the case of positive experiences, and therefore they are not stored in the patterns.

The same issues are situated in the same places in relation to the body in everyone. If the matter of a pattern is located in someone’s back as well as two metres above and twenty metres below him, then the identical issue is stored in the same places in someone else.

Different parts of one event are stored in different places. When  fear, grief, feelings of guilt, certain ideas and images occur in an incident, then the separate elements are stored in different locations. The grief is stored in a chain of grief and the fear in a chain of fear. When we remember something through regression techniques, then the various elements are retrieved from different locations in the subconscious mind. The structure of the matter around people is very complicated. It is as complex as the molecular structures of chemical products. There exists a system of addresses used for storing and retrieving material, but that’s all I know about it as yet. The layers of the patterns are not really stored on top of one another in a physical way; various patterns can also take up the same space. There are thousands of different patterns to be found in one location, and when a small piece of matter is removed from a location, another pattern appears in the very same place.

The matter of the patterns hangs over different people, and therefore other people and animals in the world (and further in the universe) also change when someone is treated. When a pattern is broken in someone, the pieces present in the others are broken too. Sometimes, patterns that are to be found in various people and that each hold a different theme, are interconnected. For example, I may treat one person for poverty and I doing so pull along the pattern of moodiness of someone else.

At some time, souls were split into parts. The different parts incarnated in different people or animals. When a pattern is broken in one part of the soul, the pattern in another part can be broken too, wherever it is present in the universe.

There are often patterns between two souls that determine the kind of relationship they have. Hence, every time these two souls meet each other in a life, they have the same attitude towards one another. For example, when their relationship is one of dominance and submissiveness, then the same feelings for one another are experienced in every life. We tend to meet the same people again in various lives, but therefore not necessarily in the same sort of relationship. In one life, two people may be sisters and love each other or hate each other; in another life, they only meet and they become friends or enemies. When the programme of the mutual relationship is broken in one person, the part of the other will automatically be broken down too. For example, when someone experiences a lot of jealousy and opposition from others, this can be due to one pattern, which is present in all parties. When the pattern is broken in the person at whom the jealousy is aimed, then the part that is present in the others, will automatically be destroyed too.

When people meet someone with whom they feel an automatic connection, each of them may hold a piece of a former whole. However, a feeling of a great bond between people may also be caused by energies. Souls that are disconnected from the body due to therapy, merge with another part in the universe or go and incarnate. One soul may also be present in several bodies, and not make up separate parts of a former whole. One soul may steer different bodies at once. When the patterns of a soul that occupies various bodies, are broken, several people will automatically feel changes.

When looking at someone’s patterns, we may come across images that actually belong to someone else. For example, when I work on myself, I see images of someone who has a transport company and who is living now. A soul that is with me, is with this other person as well and therefore I see material of that other person.

With a déjà-vu experience , you see images that come from someone else’s subconscious mind, in which one of your souls is present as well. That’s why it seems as if you have already experienced it before. A part of you is also present in someone else who has really experienced these things. Another explanation of déjà-vu is that one or more souls may disconnect from someone and stay with someone else for months or years and then join the first person again. That’s why the other people’s experiences may feel like one’s own. Perhaps there may still be other explanations for the déjà-vu phenomenon.

When I treat people, sometimes, there are significant changes in other members of the same family. The interconnection of the patterns between people is partially responsible for this. However, this may also happen because subsouls also work on other people in the environment of the treated person. For example, I started to treat a girl for anxiety and she turned out to belong to the slow group. Therefore, there weren’t many results after the first series of therapy, but her mother noticed clear changes in assertiveness in herself. I treated a woman from Rotterdam for shortage of money, and her daughter, who was staying in Paris, was released from depression at the same time. I treated a nine year old girl to increase intelligence and her younger brother of four, who exhibited difficult behaviour, suddenly became very docile. The youngest child of the same family was suddenly toilet-trained on the very day the elder sister’s treatment had started, whereas it had previously been a problem to have the child use the potty. The mother, who had the tendency to postpone things, noticed that this issue had improved and that she managed to finish the things she had to do in time. I treated a 16 year old girl to increase intelligence and her elder brother, who had left home and who had severed relations with his family, suddenly came back. I treated a boy for all kinds of problems and his mother noticed she was suddenly less anxious, the contact with her colleagues had improved, she was able to put things more in perspective and she felt happier.

15        Philosophical views, religions and esoteric techniques

Many people are looking for the meaning of life. In my view, life as we know it on the planet earth has no meaning at all. Being born and having to die again and having to work for a lifetime in order to be able to support themselves, and for many people all over the world with numerous difficulties on top of it, has no meaning at all. Eternal reincarnation and experiencing misery in the various lives is meaningless. There’s no point either in being forced to walk about on a planet with only one millionth of our potential capacities. So, according to these views, life on this planet is meaningless. We can only try to make the best of it, as long as we’re suppressed by the programme and strive to get out of it.

Great philosophers from the past had their ideas about life and about the meaning or the meaninglessness of life. However, they only put the contents of their patterns into writing and for the rest, all these philosophies don’t have much value. If people were released from their patterns, they would all possess the real, right philosophy (Truth). The prophets from the past who received the word of God, only repeated their own subconscious material. The great religious books that claim to proclaim the word of God, only voice the information from someone’s patterns.

According to the views of NPL, we’re trapped in an eternal cycle of reincarnation and so far there hasn’t been any hope to get out of it. According to some ideas, we progress automatically, because we learn lessons from every life and after a sufficient number of lives, we will be automatically enlightened, we’ll be released from the cycle of reincarnation as a matter of course. NPL disagrees with this. Those ideas result from patterns and they are not the truth. Anyone who can perceive patterns, can determine for themselves that these ideas are caused by patterns. People who are called ‘enlightened’, have only reached a very limited level according to the standards of NPL and they are certainly not free of the programme. Again, someone who can perceive patterns, will be able to confirm this for themselves. ‘New Age’ ideas about learning lessons, karma, guides, angels, light beings, cosmos, divinity, having a task here, children of the New Time, receiving messages from above, young and old souls, Jesus and Buddha and the Christ consciousness, you choose your own parents, you have to do it yourself (instead of receiving therapy), you mustn’t treat someone who doesn’t know or want this, etc., are the result of patterns.

The existing schools of spiritual evolution have their own explanation for the meaning of life and they use certain techniques to try to change less favourable circumstances. In my view, these techniques can only impact on the upper layers of the subconscious mind and they can only break off small pieces of patterns. So,  these techniques are limited as to what they can achieve. Even if they are applied for a lifetime, even then only a tiny part of the programme will have been peeled off, like a drop in the ocean, and everyone starts again in a next life. Although certain results may certainly be obtained and although there is progress, these techniques are too weak to free the world of all misery. Even if meditation techniques that peel off small pieces of patterns, are applied for a lifetime, even then only the upper layers are removed. Someone who can perceive patterns, can determine this for himself.

If you can perceive patterns, you will be able to establish that the pattern that caused a problem, is still present in the subconscious mind, even if the problem is no longer present in the life of a particular person at that moment. The problem may be gone by peeling off a small piece of the pattern, but as long as the pattern hasn’t been removed completely, it can crop up again and again. Only by continuous therapy with a technique that can have the patterns peel off continuously by themselves, the vast amounts of matter the patterns consist of, can be destroyed. There is a huge number of patterns in our subconscious mind and they consist of vast amounts of matter and they extend to tremendous depths.

People who have reached a state of enlightenment – according to the view of certain philosophical schools – have only reached a first stage in the view of NPL. Even for enlightened people in the world, there is still a long way to go – in my opinion –, before they will be freed from all the patterns.

In my view, we have been stuck in the programme for an eternity and we haven’t gotten out of it for an eternity. When perceiving  times long gone (past times, which are to be found in the subconscious mind, not past times in the history of mankind), we can determine that all kinds of therapies have always existed, but we are still not freed from the patterns. When results are obtained with alternative treatments, in the sense that a symptom is resolved or have improved, this is because the pattern has either been deactivated or a piece of the upper layers has been peeled off. The deeper layers have settled down or were not active in the first place. The deeper layers haven’t been peeled off and will crop up again later in life or in a next life.

Some psychic techniques or psychic people give energy to someone as a result of which they temporarily feel better. These techniques certainly have their value, but the patterns have not been peeled off. The cause of a problem is still present in the subconscious mind. There are psychic people who can implant something in someone, as a result of which the patterns are no longer active, but again they haven’t been entirely peeled off. Something can be implanted in someone else’s subconscious mind using techniques of magic. White magic aims to improve a client, black magic aims to destroy someone. I know little about magic, but I know one thing and that is that black magic works. I don’t have the ability to perform neither black nor white magic on someone, but I can see what has been implanted in someone, I know how destructive it is and I can remove it.

I believe you have to be born as a black magician to be really good. It is possible to can be achieved by learning techniques of black magic, though, but in my opinion, you either have the gift or you don’t, which will determine the results. A black magician who is born with the gift to perform black magic has got patterns that enable him to really achieve something with what he does (which is implanting something in others to cause them harm). He has subsouls that have patterns to cause destructive things to happen to other people. These subsouls can implant themselves in someone else’s subconscious mind. They can cause negative things to happen in the life of the person in whom they are implanted. Destructive ideas are also implanted in black magic. The ideas are stored somewhere in or around the body and the subsouls go and hang somewhere around the person. Ideas that are stored in the body can cause physical symptoms. The subsouls can take  independent action to cause negative events to happen in the life of the victim.

Black magic is very powerful. Things that have been built in, like ‘the business will fail’, are very powerful. Some gurus who gather large numbers of people around them and who have much power over them, often have (sometimes they don’t know it themselves) subsouls that implant themselves in those people and who compel them to follow the guru.

When I remove black magic, I remove subsouls and concepts, or whatever is implanted in someone. I can always remove black magic, but I can’t prevent black magic from being implanted again. The fact of being the victim of black magic is also caused by a pattern, though. Only by destroying that pattern, the problems caused by black magic will stop.

Techniques of positive thinking that involve visualizing or affirming things you want to obtain, (saying positive sentences and endlessly repeating things) give people hope, but don’t break down patterns. People briefly draw courage from it because they think there will be a solution and this positive way of thinking may bring about some improvement. However, these techniques can’t really change things, because the patterns, which are the cause of everything, remain present.

The conviction that thoughts can cause things to happen, is wrong. For example, some people will claim that certain things happen in a certain way because of negative thinking. However, these negative situations are caused by patterns and negative thoughts also result from patterns. Thoughts are not capable of causing anything. If this were true, you would only have to think in positive way to achieve anything you want. If this would work, then all misery would already have disappeared from the world.

When someone thinks in a negative way, but they don’t have patterns that steer things in a negative way anyway, then negative things will not happen. When someone thinks in a very positive way and they have patterns that steer things in a negative way, then negative things will happen.

In many therapeutic circles, it is believed that when there is a problem, something must have happened in the childhood years or in previous lives to have caused this situation. Incidents from previous lives are usually not the cause of something, but patterns are. Incidents from the childhood years or from whenever in life may indeed activate non-active patterns and can trigger symptoms. Remembering this incident or an incident from a previous life once again, may deactivate a pattern and may make the problem disappear. When there are certain symptoms, far more often, nothing happened in childhood or in previous lives; that’s just how this person is. For example, when someone is anxious by nature, then this is not the result of things that happened in the past. Someone is anxious by nature because he was born like that. The patterns in the subconscious mind make him a fearful person. For example, someone may think: I’m afraid of water in this life because I drowned in a previous life. However, the true origin of this fear of water is a pattern that arouses fear, while there hasn’t been a death by drowning.

When going back to past lives during regression therapy, numerous events and images arise. However, therapists and clients often make the mistake of immediately assuming that they originate from a past life of the client. In addition to the souls that have incarnated in the person, there are thousands of souls that have attached themselves to him or her in the course of this life or in previous lives. When images from past lives arise, this is usually material from incidents that belong to those souls and not to the souls of the person themselves.

When someone is treated with NPL, other techniques like regression, psychoanalysis, meditation, among others, go much more smoothly. Information arises much more easily and breaks much more easily. People who already apply psychic techniques, notice that their power increases once they receive an NPL treatment.

It is often believed that dreams have meaning. For example, dreams would represent unfulfilled wishes. It is a fact that subconscious information arises in dreams, namely the material from the patterns that are active. When I get up in the morning and I remember a dream, then the subject of my dream is the same as that of the pattern that is peeling off.

I don’t believe in astrology, but I can’t deny that I happened to have noticed surprising regularities, like for example a group of models who belonged to the sign of Aquarius, almost without exception. Or a journalist who writes in a newspaper: ‘I don’t believe in astrology, but I can’t deny that a large part of the editorial staff is born in May’. I noticed that someone who didn’t know anything about astrology mainly had contact with people who belonged to a certain astrological sign. The idea that the personality or the course of life could be influenced by planets around us or by the hour of birth is absurd to me. If there seem to be any regularities, then they are the result of the pattern of ‘astrology’ that surrounds people. Astrology seems to be valuable because it is programmed that this or that planet has this or that influence, or that when you are born in a certain month, you have a corresponding nature. When the pattern of ‘astrology’ is broken, the regularities will disappear.

Christianity is the result of a pattern with the contents: ‘God will send his son to save mankind. He’ll be born of a virgin, perform miracles and sacrifice himself by being nailed to the cross, so that God can forgive the sins of mankind. This religion was activated by several things. For one thing, the fact that the figure of Jesus lived at a certain time. He was an ordinary man with psychic abilities and he indeed ended up at the cross. Secondly, there is the fact that it is probably fixed in the timeline of our planet or in the pattern of Christianity or of Jesus himself when Christianity would come into existence. Thirdly, there was the fact that the Jews were expecting a Messiah.

I once perceived the following figure with someone who was trained in the NPL technique and who was very religious (Catholic): a two metre tall, white angel with blue wings. The trainee herself saw the angel too (she had psychic abilities too). Since we both perceived this angel, this couldn’t be a hallucination. The explanation for this is that subsouls can also have patterns around them. When a subsoul is stuck in a pattern that makes it think it’s an angel, then it’ll take on the shape of an angel. This is what happened in the afore-mentioned case.

When we remove all the patterns related to religion from someone, angels will no longer be perceived, neither as a hallucination nor as a subsoul in disguise.

Someone told me once that he perceived beings around him and had conversations with them. When I told him that these beings were the result of the contents of patterns and that they weren’t really present, he couldn’t believe this. In the course of the NPL treatment the beings stayed away, which was the evidence that they had been hallucinations. People who receive messages from their guides or from above, get this information from their own subconscious mind. When someone receives correct information about something, this is not a proof of a message from above, but of a psychic talent that comes from energies and subsouls. However, the received messages are often nonsense because the contents comes from patterns and is not the result of a gift. People who claim to perceive guides may, without realizing it, perceive their own subsouls.

16        NPL healing in past times

NPL healing has already existed several times in the past, but time and again it was destroyed because of other people’s jealousy. I have come to this conclusion because I can perceive past lives in the subconscious minds of people. In the subconscious mind of a few people, I have been able to view incidents of past lives of historical figures who applied NPL healing to a lower or more advanced level or who werse able to perceive the subconscious mind. Thus I have been able to view some incidents that happened in the lives of Christ, Socrates, Giordano Bruno and Freud.

As far as I have been able to ascertain by viewing these incidents, Christ travelled to the East around the age of thirty, where he came into contact with a guru who had a small group of followers and who was the reincarnation of Buddha. Through this man, Christ heard ideas of reincarnation and came into contact with techniques to improve the human being.

In the 20th century Buddha manifested himself in the person of Ron Hubbard, founder of the Scientology Church. Hubbard said he was the reincarnation of Buddha and I have been able to determine that this was true, for one thing because I perceived the soul of Buddha in pictures of Hubbard.

In his forties, Christ experienced his first extrasensory perceptions in the sense that he spontaneously started to sense patterns around people (so he didn’t die at 33). He had an insight in the subconscious mind and the best intentions. He was of a sturdy build and he was a stonecutter (cutting stones, perhaps only for part of his life). He lived with his family of six or seven children in a single-room house of 10 metre diameter with a large piece of leather as a front door. His wife and children worked in the fields. He was well-to-do.  He mainly attracted poor people with his therapeutic techniques and he wasn’t much appreciated for what he was capable of. He didn’t find any support among the rulers and there was a great deal of opposition due to jealousy.

The many miracles that are mentioned in the bible, have been made up after his death. He had certain gifts, but he wasn’t as powerful as has been described, otherwise others wouldn’t have succeeded in getting hold of him and put him to death. He was in his sixties when he died. He wasn’t tortured as severely as the Bible leads one to suspect. He was put a crown of thorns on his head, he was whipped somewhat, he was attached to the cross by heavy ropes. He was very quickly pierced in his left side by a spear so as to have death occur rapidly. There were no two other convicts together with him.

The events in the life of Christ were the result of his patterns. If someone mainly attracts poor people, experiences a lot of opposition and is put to death because of the jealousy of others, then these situations are the result of their patterns.

In the writings of the first Christians, the death of Christ is compared to that of Socrates, who had lived a few centuries before, and the similarity in the way they were put to death is pointed out as well. Both were unjustly put to death by the establishment of their time and it was, in both cases, out of jealousy.

It is my opinion that both of them practised a psychic technique for the improvement of the inner self, something called ‘self-development’ in these days.  Socrates was very interested in the inner self and in the improvement of man. It is written in the Bible that Christ cured diseases and people who were possessed (among other things). It is my conviction that he applied the NPL technique, which may be applied to improve personality and to cure diseases.

The idea of wanting to improve personality is something that is over most people’s head, even in our times. Moreover, there is very little interest for this in society. Curing diseases is easier to understand. This is how it is now and it will have been like this in the time of Christ as well. That’s why particularly the memory of curing diseases has survived in the Bible.

After Socrates and Christ had died, their pupils wanted to continue their work. It was very important to the followers of both of them to continue the work of their masters. The reason for this was that it was NPL healing/they were engaged in NPL healing, although Socrates didn’t have the high level that Christ had. People who understand what the NPL method is about, understand its enormous importance for the world and therefore they will do everything humanly possible to save this technique. In spite of this, NPL healing was lost time and again.

It was historically recorded that the first Christians believed in reincarnation, one of the fundamentals of the NPL method. Something that had once been the NPL technique in the time of Christ, was distorted into a religion, which became Christianity. Christ had a pattern that determined he would be disapproved of during his life and honoured after his death. He had a pattern that a religion would come into being and what the religion would preach.

Another person we know from history is Giordano Bruno who was burned at the stake in 1600 by the Roman Inquisition.  By viewing incidents from the past again, I could ascertain that Giordano Bruno also believed in reincarnation and that he could perceive the subconscious mind.  As a result of his perceptions of the subconscious mind, he derived ideas about God, Jesus, the soul, reincarnation and the universe.  Because of these ideas, he was burnt at the stake.
I have also viewed incidents of Freud’s live.  This way I could ascertain that Freud could perceive the subconscious mind, and as a result he knew about the existence of the subconscious mind.

17        Psychic abilities

17.1     In general

Psychic abilities are the result of energies and subsouls. Different people have different kinds of psychic abilities, which are the result of different kinds of subsouls and energies.

I myself have energies and subsouls that allow me to perceive the subconscious mind and to have a certain insight in how the subconscious mind is put together and in the origin of behaviour and life as we know it. Furthermore, I can see what is responsible for their psychic abilities in the subconscious minds of everyone who is psychic. In addition, I have energies and subsouls that can destroy the matter of which the patterns consist. When I have personal contact with someone (because this person is with me or by telephone), then these energies and subsouls automatically place themselves with this person and start breaking down patterns. When I treat people from a distance, then I line up the patterns of a number of people at a distance in front of me (I can put a pattern wherever I want it, I only have to think of it and it happens), I order my subsouls to work on the patterns (I simply think they have to produce a beam) and my subsouls send a beam to the patterns from a distance.

When people think of me during the self-treatment and ask: ‘send me energy’, then my energies make contact with the subconscious minds of these people. My energies and subsouls are with them and they work on the patterns.

When person A thinks of person B or when person A has a certain feeling about person B, then there is an energy or a pattern of person A present in the vicinity of person B (at a distance of one to five metres), or at a somewhat longer distance from person B (a few dozens or a few hundred metres). This energy or this pattern has a certain colour and a certain size, for example one and a half metres wide and two metres high.

Suppose that person A feels love for person B, than the energy of ‘love’ is physically present in the vicinity of person B, close by or somewhat further away. Suppose that person A feels hatred towards person B, then the pattern of ‘hatred’ is present with person B, close by or further away.

When person A thinks of person B and e.g. he has a neutral thought of how person B is doing, then this thought is present in the vicinity of person B in the form of an energy-like substance, which manifests itself as a haze, for example a blue-coloured haze of two metres high and two metres wide. Because this thought of person A is present nearby person B, person B may think of person A too.

That’s how telepathy works. Telepathy is the phenomenon that a thought, an energy or a pattern of person A is present in the vicinity of person B because person A thinks of person B, or has a positive or a negative feeling about person B, which in turn makes person B think of person A as well, possibly along with a certain impression or feeling.

Someone with psychic abilities like myself can, when someone thinks of me, perceive this energy or that pattern close by in a physical way. In this way, I can sense what others think of me because I literally feel their feelings or thoughts hanging nearby. This doesn’t always happen. Sometimes I think of someone myself because this person is thinking of me at that very moment, but I don’t feel any substance hanging nearby.   I am able to know whether a person of whom I’m thinking is also thinking of me with a technique of sensing people: I can enter this other person’s mind and feel whether or not this person is thinking of me or how he feels about me.

Intuition is either subconscious knowledge that comes to someone’s mind and that originates from the contents of one’s own energies and/or subsouls, or knowledge that one’s own energies/subsouls pick up from other people’s subconscious minds. The contents of the energies/subsouls is passed on to the person (the conscious mind, the soul), giving them an intuitive knowledge or making them act on the basis of these intuitions.

The subconscious mind is copied in a picture. Therefore, someone with psychic abilities can sense the personality in a picture. When I sense a picture, I perceive the personality like it was at the moment when the picture was taken, because I perceive what is copied in a picture. Other psychic people use a picture to make contact with someone and they can thus pick up how they fared at that moment.

An NPL therapist can also perceive someone’s souls, patterns, energies and subsouls in a picture. He or she can also sense the inner world of people and animals without the help of a picture. This kind of sensing is different than sensing patterns, it is sensing what someone is thinking and how he feels at that moment. When someone has been sufficiently treated with NPL healing, they develop this ability.

The picture represents the energies and subsouls responsible for the NPL therapist’s psychic abilities.

Being able to sense someone’s patterns does not imply you know everything about them. Lots of patterns are inactive. By sensing someone’s patterns, you can’t know what they are thinking at a particular time or in what kind of situation they find themselves. Energies and patterns can contradict one another and so can different patterns. Therefore, it’s not possible to judge someone entirely correctly or to know what kind of life he lives simply by sensing the patterns. When sensing the inner world of a person or an animal, you can get to know how someone is feeling or what he is thinking at that very moment and what personality he has.

17.2 Psychic abilities of a historical figure explained: Rasputin

Rasputin is a historical example of a psychic healer. He was the Russian healer who lived 100 years ago and who ended up at the imperial court and who controlled the crown prince’s fatal blood disease.

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Historical information known about Rasputin

In the years he remained within the Imperial court, witnesses, including doctors, concluded he possessed some extraordinary healing power over the Tsarevich and his deadly illness, hemophilia. Rasputin’s mysterious ability to heal Alexei convinced the Tsarina Aleksandra that Rasputin must have been sent by God himself. In her mind he was the answer to her prayers for God to save her son.

As early as 1900, Rasputin was famous throughout Eastern Russia as a sort of faith healer and strannik, or wandering holy mendicant. Rasputin also was said to have the power of precognition, predicting events that happened months later, and clairvoyance, which is the ability to see events happening elsewhere. Many claimed to have seen these abilities at work. Rasputin was also said to have a strange influence over others. People reported feeling compelled to do things while in his presence, something most sceptics attribute to some form of hypnosis.

One incident, which happened in 1912 is the best-known example. The Tsarevich had badly bruised himself and was bleeding to death. The doctors assembled to care for him pronounced that nothing could be done for the boy, who lingered in this state for a few days. When Rasputin came to the tsarevich’s bedside, he waved his hands over the boy, spoke to him briefly, then stated that he was better. And, according to the many doctors and scientific sceptics who viewed this, the boy did recover.

In October of 1912, while the Tsar and his family were at their hunting lodge in Spala, Alexei fell on the side of a bathtub. Bruising and bleeding, Alexei was in terrible pain. The doctors could do nothing for him, and Alexandra spent ten days without sleep at his bedside. A notice was drawn up announcing the death of the heir. Desperate, the Tsarina telegrammed Rasputin. “God has seen your tears,” Rasputin wired back. “Do not grieve. The Little One will not die.” Within hours of receiving this telegram, the bleeding had subsided and Alexei began to recover.

A detailed analysis of the various psychic abilities of Rasputin

1. Being aware of occurrences that happen elsewhere.

Rasputin had subsouls that communicated with him, that informed him about things that took place elsewhere. Rasputin experienced this as if he just knew things. He either spontaneously got impressions about things that happened elsewhere, or he got impressions the moment he wanted to know something or the moment he was thinking of something.

Rasputin’s subsouls had contact with other people’s subsouls. Rasputin’s subsouls simply received information about what went on elsewhere from subsouls that belonged to people who were in those other places or that belonged to people he wanted to know something about.

2. Being directed in life.

This isn’t something that is mentioned in the accounts about Rasputin, but something I have sensed in the pictures myself.

There’s a subsoul that directs him in his daily activities: he gets sudden impulses, he gets the feeling he should do this or that. This subsoul leads him through life and sends him in the right direction. When he makes something his purpose or when he wants something, this subsoul will help him achieve this goal by sending him in the right direction and bringing the right things on his path. When the things he wants to achieve are not good for him, the subsoul will not help or he will get the feeling he is crossed, the subsoul will try to be an inhibiting factor and will cause things to be difficult. So that, in the end, he is sent in the right direction as much as possible.

3. Predicting the future.

There’s a subsoul that knows the future and that passes this information on to him. Rasputin experiences this as knowing things.

Some people – like Rasputin – have subsouls that know the future. Clairvoyants only have to make contact with these subsouls in order to receive information. Sometimes clairvoyants direct their attention towards a presence, some energy they perceive around them, which they consider to be their guide and from which they get information, or they just know things. Therefore, clairvoyants often use the expression that they ‘receive information’, which refers to the idea that the information comes from guides or angels or from divine channels. Lots of clairvoyants are not that good, and they sometimes get correct impressions as well as lots of incorrect ones, but there are also clairvoyants who are simply good.

 4. Curing diseases

Rasputin had a subsoul that pointed out to him what was wrong with someone, so that he knew what was the matter with the sick person as soon as he met them. He also immediately knew what he had to do, thanks to this subsoul. Hence, he had developed a tremendous insight in the human body, without having studied the human body or medicine. Rasputin was not very intelligent, actually.

A second subsoul passed information to him as well about how to handle things, so that he just knew what he had to do once again. This subsoul had knowledge about the functioning of the body and about the chemical processes in the body. This subsoul also had an understanding of herbs and of substances that could help the body. This subsoul gave Rasputin clues about the products he could use. Rasputin just knew how to give medical care and he knew which remedies he could use to heal people. This subsoul also let him know where he could find certain herbs (for instance in which wood). Rasputin experienced this as knowing he had to go to the wood to find a herb, and he also knew which way to take, and he recognized the herb when he saw it. He also knew how to process and use the herbs. He automatically did everything the right way.

He worked as a healer, so he cured people, with much love, really to help and not out of pursuit of profit.

The same subsoul, together with a group of other subsouls, was capable of producing a tremendously powerful energy which acted on the sick person (the subsouls are present around a healer and are aimed at the sick person).

Rasputin was also able to send this energy from a distance to someone, he only had to think of someone, to concentrate on this person and to want to cure him, and the energy moved to the sick person.

This energy gave energy to the patient, the patient felt stronger and more energetic, felt strengthened. This energy had the capacity of warmth (literally physical warmth), and this warmth effected the body of the patient on a cellular level. A certain energy, which is present in the cells – the existence of which may possibly not have been discovered by science yet – was supplied as a result. This energy is needed by the cells to function well. This energy is the fuel that makes the cells function, the motor behind the processes that take place in the cell. The abundant presence of this energy in the cell enables chemical processes to come about faster and thus cure the body faster. This way, the cells are provided with new fuel to perform chemical processes.

Rasputin had yet another subsoul at his disposal that had knowledge of the body and of the chemical processes and chemical substances in the body down to the smallest detail. This subsoul could produce any possible chemical substance by itself, and it could add substances to the body of the sick person on a cellular level and it could interfere in every on-going chemical process, by adding chemical substances and energy to the cell.

This makes me think of God creating the human body, this subsoul really makes me think of that. Rasputin really had exceptional gifts, and I couldn’t be anything but impressed by them when I sensed the pictures.

Rasputin also had energies that made a person stronger and more energetic and that helped in the healing process. This is another energy than the one I just described that originated from the subsouls. These were energies that nourished sick people, which made them stronger and furthered the healing process.

Rasputin had yet another energy at his disposal that nourished the cells of the body, still different(ly) from how I have described it before: an energy that supported the cells, that strengthened the cells, that gave vitality to the cells.

5. Being able to impose his will on people

Rasputin had an energy that made him exude authority, which made people perceive him as a very powerful and overwhelming personality. He had an energy that closed itself around people and that made them like clay in his hands, and made them do everything he wanted them to do. They felt he was their master and they had to obey him. Suddenly, they were willing to do what Rasputin wanted. All resistance was gone and they saw the logic and the rightness of what Rasputin wanted.

They cooperated as long as this energy was active and this energy was active as long as Rasputin concentrated on what he wanted to achieve.

There were also subsouls that placed themselves on people and that made them feel they had to obey Rasputin. This happened automatically as soon as Rasputin wanted something.

Rasputin didn’t know what caused these situations; he simply noticed that people willingly cooperated whenever he wanted something. He thought there was a divine power that paved the way for him.

This energy only came into action when the goal to be achieved was good for the common cause.  For example, when Rasputin wanted a group of poor people to be helped, then some well-off people would willingly open their purse, while they would not have done this without the help of Rasputin’s energies and subsouls.

When Rasputin wanted to do something that was only in his own self-interest, then the energies didn’t come into action. If what he wanted was good for others as well, the energy came into action.

6. Other characteristics

Rasputin was a very loving and energetic person. There were lots of energies around him that represented ‘love’.

He was very understanding of others. He had compassion for others and wanted to help. He was very devout. He lived for his fellow human beings and he had everyone’s best interest at heart. He was there for others and others could always count on him. He prayed a lot for the cure of others, and he didn’t realize that both his subsouls, which I have described earlier, and his own energies of love and power then acted on the sick person.

He believed that the results were caused by his prayer. He believed that there was some divine power beyond him which brought about the recovery.

He would have travelled anywhere he believed God sent him to help and cure people. He felt like he was led to places where help was needed, he thought this guidance came from God, although the guidance actually came from his own subsouls.

He was not very intelligent and most probably he will not have been great at understanding all kinds of things, but he had subsouls that gave him knowledge about the body.

He could only think slowly and with difficulty and he had difficulty reasoning. There were lots of things he couldn’t understand and he couldn’t understand complicated things, but he was an incredibly loving person.

He had the will to help, he immediately sensed when something was the matter with someone, if someone had some or other problem, he was alert to this. When someone had a rough time, in whatever way, he was there ready to help. He could also sense from a distance when something was the matter, and then he headed for where he thought the problems were.

He could sense that there was a problem somewhere. This was because his energies were able to take in other people’s situations (both from a distance), which he became aware of. Apart from that, there was also a subsoul that passed on to him that somewhere there was a problem.

He knew the attitude of others to him, he knew whether people liked him or not (in spite of appearances to the contrary). He was able to sense almost every mood of other people, he always knew what was going on inside other people’s minds. This was due to energies and subsouls that could perceive this.

He was an enthralling storyteller, he was able to hold his audience spellbound. He could have people hang on his every word, for hours on end. He could fill people with enthusiasm. People felt safe and secure with him and felt that everything would be all right now.

He had an incredible endurance for physical pain. He was able to bear more physical pain than anybody else. He had an energy that gave him this strength.  When things got too bad, energies came into action that soothed the pain and that added strength to his body.

He had an enormous stamina for physical exertion due to yet another energy.

He had energies of mental strength, willpower. He had a tremendous will to achieve something.

He had very much courage, a very strong perseverance, an extraordinary mental power to keep going. His mental power was so strong that, in extreme circumstances, it could take control over his body. For example, if he was physically worn out, his mental powers could still force his body to keep going.

He always had great plans and he persevered until he had reached his goal.

18      The inner world of animals

Animals are largely the same beings as a humans. Animals have feelings and desires. Some animals can think and reason. I can perceive the world of thought of animals in a picture as it was at the moment the picture was taken.

18.1     An example of the world of thought of a parrot

The parrot described below, appears to be rather egoistic and antisocial. He prefers to do his own things and he’s not particularly fond of contact with other parrots. A human being could be like that too.

This parrot is making a three-dimensional representation of the area in which he finds himself and of the insects he wants to catch. I thought this was interesting to describe, it gives an indication of the intelligence of animals.

The parrot is thinking about which way to fly, which direction to take. He is thinking about a prey he wants to catch, and where the best opportunities are to catch this prey. He is thinking about where he would preferably be heading. He knows the region and he has an overview of the region in his mind. He knows where the fields and the meadows are and where he can find water. He knows that there is a bunch of trees on his right.  Further on the right and behind him, there is a forest where he is living in trees together with other parrots. On the left, there are meadows and there is water. The fields are in front of him.

He knows that the trees are on his right and I can sense he knows that. He has a picture in his mind of what the meadows, the water and the fields look like, including the sense of direction, on his left and in front of him. I can perceive both this image and the sense of direction.

He feels enticed by the water, because he is thirsty, and he would like to drink, but on the other hand he knows there’s prey in front of him, in the meadows. His attention is particularly focused on the meadows in front of him.

He likes to eat, he is greedy, he would like to eat all the time. If it was up to him, he would constantly want to eat and drink, that’s his favourite occupation.

He is imagining the various possible preys he might find. He is thinking about a worm and a beetle. I can perceive a picture of a worm of about five centimetres long and about three millimetres wide. I can perceive a picture of a beetle: a flat black body with some tiny paws. The parrot has spatial perception. I can perceive the images the parrot is visualizing in his head.

He is not very fond of the beetle, he prefers the worm a lot more. If he finds enough worms, he won’t eat any beetles, he only eats beetles if he has no choice, when there are not enough worms.

There isn’t any food to be found on the ground below him, he has to fly ahead, to the fields, he can find food there. He is resting for a while, he is tired and then he will continue to fly.

He has a nest, he has offspring for which he’s responsible, but he doesn’t worry too much about it, because the female takes care of it. He shirks his responsibilities somewhat, he brings food now and then(like insects, nuts, seeds, leafy vegetables), and then he acts somewhat superciliously, like: ‘look what I’m bringing along here’. He really fancies himself when he happens to bring something. He knows the female brings in plenty of food and does her very best, and is constantly flying back and forth to find food for her offspring, so he can rest easy on it.

She sometimes looks angrily at him if he happens to arrive with small prey or with a nut, with some green leaf or a piece of fruit, but he doesn’t care. He prefers to keep the best food for himself, since he’s so fond of eating. Only when he has too much food, or when it’s small prey he doesn’t like anyway, or when he’s eaten enough, he’s willing to give some of his own food.

He doesn’t feel like flying back and forth all the time either, looking fervently for food for his offspring. He couldn’t care less. He prefers doing his own things. He wants to be free and doesn’t want to have responsibilities, he wants to have the opportunity to spend his time flying and looking for food for himself.

When he brings along some food to the nest, then he puts this in the nest, but he leaves the feeding of the young to his companion. He doesn’t feel bonded to his offspring in the nest, he can’t bring himself to feeding his offspring (putting the food in their beak), he feels an aversion to this, he doesn’t do that. He doesn’t feel an affinity to his offspring, as if they were strangers to him, he does his duty and that’s it.

He very much likes to fly in the air at a very high altitude/very high in the sky, he can spend hours doing that. He likes to fly very far away. When he’s flying, he has an overview of the landscape below him, that’s where his food is, where the preys are. He has a profound affinity with the landscape below when he’s flying, since that’s where he finds his food and his water, because that’s what’s keeping him alive.

He’s so keen on flying, when he flies, he overlooks the fields and the woodland, which he enjoys. He has an incredible feeling of freedom when flying, he is as happy as Larry. Flying is his favourite occupation, besides eating, flying high and very fast and then slower again, and then floating in the air. He enjoys it so much, it gives him such a feeling of bliss, flying is the ultimate happiness, he can do it for hours. The feeling of freedom and joy it brings him, is beyond description.

He doesn’t look forward to coming home to his offspring, he stays away as long as possible. Now and then he flies to the nest with some food and then he stays away as long as possible. At night, he waits as long as possible before going to the nest, until it’s almost dark. And then he sleeps somewhere around the nest on a branch of a tree.

The mother stays closer to the nest. She looks well after the little ones. Excellent, that’s one thing less to worry about for him. She looks mad at him once in a while, but he doesn’t care.

He has very little affinity with his consort, they produce offspring together, and that’s it. Apart from that, there is no bond between them. He has little affection for his companion, he is sometimes hard on her. He sometimes clearly shows her she doesn’t mean much to him (by adopting a certain posture, breast forward, beak forward (I think)).

He produces offspring with her every year, that’s just the way it is, he is bound to her.

In fact, he doesn’t care much about his offspring, he barely knows his young. Once in a while, one of his young of the previous years, crosses his path while he’s flying, but he doesn’t want to have contact with them. He just flies on and pretends not to have seen his young. He doesn’t want to have anything to do with all those young, he is annoyed by their existence. He doesn’t want to have a bond with them, he wants to ignore them. He doesn’t feel affection for them and he doesn’t want to have anything to do with them. To him, they don’t exist.

He knows that’s not good manners, and that the other parrots disapprove of it, but he doesn’t care. According to what is considered proper, he should at least greet them, and make some contact. But he does as he pleases, he doesn’t care about what the others think.

He wants to live his own life, without having to be much concerned about others. He doesn’t like to have contact with other parrots, he prefers to be on his own. He is sometimes with the group in the forest, though, and then he dominates the conversation (he makes particular noises, very loud and all the time, to show he’s the master, I can sense a feeling of haughtiness and looking down on others along with that). He wants to get all the attention, he wants to push himself to the forefront and the wants to push others behind (figuratively speaking).

And then he’s gone once again, flying on his own, or looking for food, and he stays away as long as possible so as not having to be with the group. He does as he pleases, and he doesn’t care about the social standards.

He sometimes feels nervous, he feels an inner tension, when he’s aware of a prey, and when he has to wait for the prey to appear in a certain position so that he can catch it. And then he dashes towards it, feeling tense because of the danger that the prey might escape him. And when he lays hold of the prey, he triumphs, and then he enjoys his meal, and he feels so happy, and he enjoys life.

And then he gets thirsty, and he wished the water was immediately around the food. However, that’s not the case, and then he has to make a flight to the water. And whilst on other occasions he loves flying, at that moment he flies reluctantly, because he aches for the water, he would like to drink straight away, and now he still has to cover some distance. Which is unpleasant.

18. 2    An example of the world of thought of four wolves of a pack

Second wolf from the left, wolf 2

He is happy, he has a good life. He (or she) is well accepted as one of the group. He has acquired a place in the group. He is respected, he gets his share. He counts as much as the others. He is not pushed aside, he is not cast out. He gets equal parts of the food as the others. There’s plenty of food available, there are lots of small animals in the neighbourhood they can hunt for, they are never hungry. They roam in groups through the landscape in search of food.

When a member of the pack has been able to catch a prey, this is shared, unless it’s a small animal. Everyone in the group gets sufficient food. If one wolf catches a lot of food, then this is shared with others, so that every wolf gets enough.

Apart from when they are in search of food and eating, they lie together in a group on the ground or they sleep in a group.

His feelings towards the other wolves of the pack: he is great friends with the wolf on his right (the wolf on the far left in the picture, wolf 1). He likes him and they get on very well. They often play together (biting each other slightly, fighting playfully). They share food between one another. Wolf 1 sometimes doesn’t have enough food and then he gives a bit of his part, he doesn’t mind. Friendship is more important to him than a filled stomach. Only when he’s very hungry and there is not much food, he won’t share with wolf 1. But as soon as he has sufficient food himself, he will feel sorry for wolf 1 and he will make sure that wolf 1 gets some food.

Wolf 1 sometimes walks with a limp and has sometimes difficulty walking. The other wolves of the pack don’t care about him and leave wolf 1 to fend for himself. But he takes care of his companion. When wolf 1 can no longer keep up with the group and when the others are far ahead, he stays near wolf 1. Even if this means he’ll miss out on food. Then he stays there with wolf 1 and he searches some food in the immediate neighbourhood (small animals), which he shares with wolf 1. And then they stay together until the other wolves return.

When wolf 1 is tired and exhausted and unable to keep up with the group, then he does not find it in his heart to leave him alone and he stays with him. Even if this means fasting. The other wolves approve it. They don’t care. On occasion, the wolf on his left (wolf 3) shows some disdain with regard to this (by growling) but he doesn’t care about that.

Wolf 1 is a wolf that came from another pack and that has joined their group. Wolf 3 didn’t like this newcomer very much and growled at him, but he (wolf 2) went to him, and stayed with him for a while, with wolf 3 growling at a distance. But after a number of days, wolf 3 got more indifferent and they quietly came closer and wolf 1 could stay without any problem. But wolf 3 has always ignored wolf 1 and has never showed him any regard. Wolf 1 is accepted, but with reserve.

His (wolf 2) feeling for wolf 3 is a feeling of competition, wolf 3 is the boss and is dominant and he (wolf 2) follows and he knows his place. But he is a little jealous and if he would see the opportunity to cut out wolf 3, he wouldn’t hesitate, but there’s no chance. He doesn’t show his true feelings to wolf 3. On the contrary, he shows him respect (he knows his place), he is submissive, he demonstrates his (false) affection to him (by going around in circles beside him, by turning around a few times beside him). In spite of this, he does in fact have respect for wolf 3 because he’s the leader.

His feelings for wolf 4: he doesn’t know him very well, he doesn’t hang around much with him, he is rather indifferent to him. However, he is jealous of wolf 4 because that one gets a little more respect and attention from wolf 3 than he does. If wolf 3 gives up some food, wolf 4 will always get food first and will always get more food than himself. The difference between how he is treated by wolf 3 and how wolf 4 is treated, is subtle, but he can notice it, though. It is clear to him that wolf 4 is a little favoured and that wolf 3 feels more affection for wolf 4 than for himself.

First wolf from the left, wolf 1

He is curious about what is happening behind him, he hears a noise.

He belongs to the group, is a little older. He can’t move forward as well as the others anymore, doesn’t always find food. He gets leftovers from what the others don’t eat. When another animal has finished eating his catch, he gets the rest. Sometimes a wolf just eats a small part of his catch, and the rest is for him. He usually lies at a small distance from the other animals of the group. That’s because his rank in the group is a bit lower and he has somewhat fewer rights. Apart from that, he’s accepted in the group and he has about the same rights as the others.

His feelings for wolf 2: he is helped by him, which he is grateful for. The other wolves look at him with some contempt and they ignore him, but that doesn’t hit him hard. He has one companion in the group (wolf 2) and that is enough. He doesn’t take everything too much to heart, he is very happy to have some food (sometimes a bit less than the others, and he can’t always catch much himself, but he doesn’t mind all that), and not to have to wander about alone and to be left to his own devices. Because that is dreadful. He’s happy to be admitted in the group, and apart from that he’s satisfied with everything. Feelings towards wolf 2: this wolf looks after him, he is dependent on him, gratitude, a bond, love, a feeling of belonging together.

His feelings for wolf 3: he doesn’t care much about him, wolf 3 ignores him and sometimes scornfully leaves over some food, but that doesn’t affect him much. He couldn’t care less about wolf 3, he pretends to respect him but in his heart he doesn’t.

His feelings towards wolf 4: that one is more of a stranger to him, he has little contact with him, that one is always near wolf 3, he couldn’t care less about him.

Second wolf from the right, wolf 3

This wolf is dominant and aggressive. He is thinking up a strategy to get hold of food. He is thinking which direction they have to head for to catch food. He is thinking of a hole of smaller animals where they can catch animals. This hole is in a forward direction. He also thinks of the possibility on his right. There are a great deal of holes with lots of animals over there.

He takes charge when they hunt. He goes in front and the others follow a little behind him. When there’s not much food to catch or when there’s only one hole, he takes on the responsibility for the catch. When he catches some food, this is proportionally divided among the members of the pack. He eats a part of the catch first, and next the others eat. The wolf on the far left eats last and when there is anything left.

Feelings towards the others wolves: they all belong together, he knows his place and the others know their place, he feels respect towards and a bond with the wolves beside him, and looks somewhat down upon wolf 1. But still, he won’t hurt that wolf and he will help him when he needs help, because the wolf belongs to the group and that is respected. He only feels a little contempt for him and he will also show this to him by ignoring him (walking alongside him without making contact), by growling. Because of this, the wolf knows he has to keep his seat. He’ll also show his contempt by making sure that the rest of the food he’s caught is sometimes only reserved for the other wolves and that nothing or nothing much remains for wolf 1.

Sometimes he (wolf 3) is in a better mood and he has no problems with this wolf enjoying the prey he’s caught. When the members of the group lie on the ground together, he can sometimes tolerate it better that that wolf lies somewhat closer by him, and he won’t growl.

Wolf on the far right in the picture, wolf 4

That wolf is out for food. She is focused on herself and doesn’t care much about the others. She lives in her own small world and has little contact with other wolves.

She is particularly preoccupied with food and with being in wolf 3’s favour. She behaves obsequiously towards wolf 3, in order to find favour. She walks close beside him (this means: a bond, we belong together), she caresses him (rubbing her head against him, this is a sign of the greatest respect for him), she goes in search of food for him and puts it down before him (he gets her food, that is a sign of the highest possible respect), she lays her paws across him when they lie resting on the ground, (again a sign of the utmost respect). Wolf 3 tolerates this from her, he wouldn’t tolerate this from many others. This is a sign that he accepts her respect for him and that she is greatly accepted by him.

She sucks up to wolf 3 mainly because she’s out for the best food. And she has noticed it does the trick, because she thinks she is a bit more favoured regarding food than the other wolves. She has the impression that wolf 3 lets her eat the quickest when he’s finished and also leaves the best parts for her. She thinks she has noticed he favours her a little above the other wolves. This proves that her obsequious attitude is working and that he doesn’t see that she actually doesn’t mean it. She purely does it to get more food.

Attitude towards wolf 1: she’s barely aware of him being there. She’s so self-absorbed and so caught up in her own small world and she’s so preoccupied with getting a lot of food, that she hardly notices the presence of the other wolves in the pack.

Attitude towards wolf 2: ditto, but she’s also a little jealous of him, and she is competing a little with him. This has everything to do with the fact that she wants to receive the best and the most food. She is a little more aware of wolf 2 than wolf 1 because she is competing with him for food.

19        Example treatments

On my website, there are example treatments of people who are treated with NPL and who reveal their identity and their domicile. A few people have also testified on my forum under a pseudonym.

19. 1    Emilie

The progress of this treatment has been reported on my forum. The young woman who was treated, reported daily about her experiences with the distance treatment under a pseudonym. The symptoms that were resolved in this treatment, had been caused by fabricated entities (see chapter 14).

Sunday, March 15th 2009, 11.35 a.m. 

Hi, I will first introduce myself, I’m Emilie, I am from Belgium and I am a psychology university student. Yesterday was my first visit to Linda Evans. I happened upon her website and I made an appointment because I have been contending with a whole range of problems for the past five months. It started with very strange feelings that didn’t seem to belong to me, lots of crying fits, a lot of anxiety, little control over myself, a very bad feeling about myself, images of death, and most of all, voices that said strange things to me. First, I went to see a psychiatrist who couldn’t diagnose much, apart from anxiety.

Around the same time, one of my best friends experienced similar phenomena, but apart from that, he was also suicidal and there was a whole change in his behaviour towards me as well as towards other people. A very painful experience for me, who loves him very much, to see him change like that. Enough to make me collapse. After the psychiatrist, I came into contact with mediums who advised me all kinds of remedies, some of which had a temporary effect, but nothing worked really well and above all, not permanently. Then, out of great desperation, I started to browse around on the internet and so I found Linda. And now I wish this had happened much sooner.

During my first appointment I could ask all the questions I wanted and she explained everything to me. At that moment, she also tried to remove some entities, and I immediately felt a change. I didn’t immediately feel better, but I did feel different. Therefore I do actually have a little hope that she will be able to get me out of this strenuous time. The rest of my reports will follow and I hope they will be of use to many of you. Emilie.

Sunday, March 15th 2009, 1.39 p.m.

In order to throw some light on my symptoms, I’ll make a list of my problems and I’ll give some more explanation.

First, I was troubled by voices: voices that talked to me, that laughed at me, voices that imitated acquaintances of mine and told me dirty things. I had feelings that didn’t seem to belong to me (heartache, crying fits, distress), I saw images of my friend hanging himself or trying to strangle me.

Now I very much have the impression that I always have an urge to scream, scream very loudly, and that I constantly have to offer resistance in order not to start screaming. It’s gruelling, those voices are also very exhausting because you have the reflex to suppress them. I also hear a kind of whisper, a rustle in my head that makes it impossible for me to concentrate. Really a hell actually: along with this, I also very much have the feeling I’m somebody else, that Emilie is no longer there.

And the greatest shock of all to me was the fact that my friend suddenly treated me very coldly. He was merciless and rude and told me he didn’t want to see me anymore or he simply walked away from me. Now he is completely withdrawn into himself and unfortunately I’m doing the same because of all those voices. Furthermore, I have a lot of pain and twinges in my chest.

And my ever greatest complaints since a few days have been that I have felt so much anxiety and that I have been terribly afraid of ending up in psychiatry.

I hope that everything is clear now.  Furthermore, I’ll try to describe the evolution of all the symptoms (I’ll focus on the voices, the fear and the screaming and the feeling of not being myself anymore, because these are the most annoying to me).

Monday, March 16th 2009, 11.41 p.m.

It’s the first day of the treatment and there have been moments that I have already suffered a little less from voices. My urge to scream has changed and diminishes very often. Since I’ve consulted Linda, I believe I even feel differently about myself. That is what strikes me the most. I finally start to feel a little like myself, like Emilie again.  I have the impression that the person inside me is more and more me again instead of somebody else. This feels very good and I really, immensely hope that this will last or will even increase, this feeling of being myself again.

What strikes me the most, is that I can perceive changes in my behaviour (compared to some four to five months ago, when all the misery began). I realize, though, that at a certain moment I reacted very strangely (for example: I have never stolen anything, but I suddenly had an urge to steal things). I have the impression that I’m becoming more aware of many things. For the moment, I find this the greatest progress. Today it dawned on me a couple of times that some things actually didn’t add up at all (or rather ‘don’t add up’) regarding my behaviour of the past few months and I have become aware of that. I think this is a huge step forward.

Tuesday, March 17th 2009, 8.50 p.m.

I’ve had a strange day; I’m a little daunted by all my problems of the last few months. Now, I’m suddenly somewhat afraid it won’t get solved. So far, something has greatly changed for the better since I went to see Linda, which is that I feel like Emilie again: I feel I’m gradually starting to come really closer to myself again and I can again be myself a little more; this continues to feel good. I don’t know well how to explain it, but it feels like I’m the one who’s in my body again.

I have once again suffered much from voices and screaming today, though, but in fits and starts, sometimes more vehemently, and then again quieter. The voices are different, they don’t sabotage and contradict me as much anymore (for example: everything I did was always commented on, usually very negatively) and now this is already happening less. I have difficulty concentrating as a result, though, and furthermore, I hope they’ll disappear completely. I also take heart from the fact that I can always call Linda when things don’t go well. She also asks me about my progress by mail. It does help you a little to calm down, particularly when you think (like I have been doing all day today), that perhaps, it might not get solved after all.

Wednesday, March 18th 2009, 6.09 p.m.

We’re on day three and I haven’t suffered from voices at all since I got up. I still hear something now and then when I’m caught in a weak moment (when I feel sad or very tired), but furthermore, for the first time I can think entirely like I used to think for a number of hours on end without being contradicted in my own head or receiving comment on everything by those voices in my head. I really feel like Emily again. However, I’m still very afraid that it won’t get solved and I feel sad about my friend and things like that, but I think I can really say that I have actually obtained results. I really hope it will continue to evolve in this direction. I try to be very careful in what I say and think (in order not to create any false hope), but I’m really more optimistic about it after today and after what I can perceive. There is really an evolution. The screaming is quiet and I don’t need to offer resistance in order to stop it. Although I do still feel it inside, but I’m hopeful it will disappear. The rustle in my head has even gone since this morning. Therefore, I can already concentrate much better, which I’m also incredibly grateful for.

Thursday, March 19th 2009, 9.41 p.m.

This is day four of the treatment and I must say I’m quite pleased and also astonished. I have suffered a little more from the voices today than yesterday, but actually, it was perfectly bearable. If things can continue like this, then I have high hopes that it will even get completely resolved. I really continue to be surprised that it can improve so quickly and that there is actually a real difference. I still feel like myself again (which I definitely didn’t anymore when I was hearing a lot more voices). Furthermore, I’m a little less anxious (although this has really been the most difficult time of my life so far, and although I’m a really anxious person).

Friday, March 20th 2009, 8.25 p.m.

Day five. This morning, I once again got up without hearing voices and they stayed away until about 7 pm. After a nap, I had some strange thoughts again and I was afraid for a moment, but I haven’t had much problems today, although it was a very stressful day. So yes, I think this is exceptionally good news.

After meeting up with a friend today, she asked if everything was alright again, because she felt that I once again acted like I used to do, which is also very good news.

I think I may say now that it is clear to me that Linda surely isn’t talking nonsense.

Today the anxiety was really bearable and I can also again act like Emilie.

I still often suffer from the screaming (i.e. having a huge urge to scream), but I almost don’t have to make any effort at all to stop it (so to not actually do it). I believe things are really getting solved now. I often still feel a little strange and anxious, but I think this is mainly because of the situation. I am even able to enjoy something now, instead of being preoccupied with those voices and things like that all the time.

Sunday, March 22th 2009, 12.55 a.m.

One week ago, I was at Linda’s for the first time, telling my story. I left her office still somewhat sceptical, but with a good feeling, though. Well, now, a week later, I do have to admit that I’m totally convinced that this distance treatment works. Today, I haven’t suffered from voices at all anymore. I can think normally again. However, I’m still afraid that it will change again, even though I haven’t suffered at all from them today. I’ve had a strong urge to scream today, but I almost didn’t have to make any effort to stop it and it has changed. I don’t feel it in my chest anymore either, like I used to do, but in my throat, as if it needs to come out. Much less unpleasant than it before, actually, when I think of it. The only thing I suffered from today, was a numb feeling in, but I know almost for sure that this is due to my current situation (with my friend and things like that). My anxiety is much better; every now and then I feel something welling up, but I’m really doing much better, compared to what I have been through in the past few weeks (those voice were really unbearable, they terrified me and almost drove me insane).

Well, I’m still somewhat surprised, and also really happy and yet still a little afraid that it will take a turn, since I don’t want to shout victory too soon.

Sunday, March 22th 2009, 21.58 p.m.

A strange beginning of the day today: I got up with a rather numb feeling in my head and a little rustle in my head (not really voices, but sounds like radio interference). This didn’t last long, and then it was gone. The numb feeling fluctuates throughout the day, but now I’m fine again. The voices have stayed away almost entirely and furthermore, I haven’t suffered much from the yelling. This morning, Linda put my mind at rest, which helped me a little to keep my spirits up. I rarely suffer from anxiety anymore, which is also great.

The only thing that is worrying me again, is the numb feeling in my head, but apart from that, I can’t repeat enough there has been a huge change and in only a week’s time.

Monday, March 23rd 2009, 20.58 p.m. 

Great day today, I have hardly suffered from anything at all, apart from a few strange thoughts, but for the rest, it has been really great. I have no urge to scream at all anymore, no rustle, I can more or less concentrate again, I don’t feel anxious. Although, I still feel like I reside in a different world a little, but the circumstances certainly add to this. It works; there’s little else I can say about it. It’s not entirely over yet, but the improvements can be noticed very well, although my circumstances (I mean, the situation I’m in) haven’t improved since the beginning of Linda’s treatment; quite the opposite, in fact. And the problems for which I went to see Linda (voices and such, I felt this was the worst), are almost completely gone now.

Wednesday, March 25th 2009, 22.15 p.m.

I didn’t write anything yesterday, because there wasn’t much to tell, actually. Everything was fine, I didn’t suffer from voices anymore, no more rustle, no numb feeling in my head, much less anxiety than usually … although it was once again a stressful day (a student’s life can sometimes be stressful). In fact, I was able to forget about the whole situation for a while. Now, I mainly try to sort out the chaos in my life a little bit and somehow I‘m still anxiously awaiting if will stay like this. The only thing I suffered a little from today was a small rustle in my head, that’s all.  I feel I’m gradually starting to get my feet on the ground again.

Wednesday, April 1st 2009, 21.06 p.m.

I’m back again. I just wanted to leave a little word to say that I’m still almost entirely free of symptoms. Once in a while I hear a little rustle or I to hear a voice for a moment, but nothing really lasting, it is really muuuuuch better. I really can’t complain. Concentration is fine, the screaming crops up very, very rarely, but then it disappears very quickly again, and now I can really say with conviction that everything is much better. I really hope Linda will manage to make her therapy more widely known, because it is really, really, really worthwhile.

Tuesday, April 14th 2009, 15.13 pm

It’s a couple of weeks on and I don’t hear voices anymore, I don’t have an urge to scream anymore, I’m certainly not as frightened anymore and I totally feel like myself again. Linda was right: she can solve a lot and that is also what she has done for me.

19.2    

This treatment has been documented in much detail, both the account of the problems and the report about the results. I have tried to represent the problem description and the progression of the person treated as accurately as possible. In this way, it is made clear how we operate when using NPL healing and what results can be obtained. In this way you can see how all problems gradually get better until they are completely gone, and that there is a gradual evolution in personality, health, ability and the way in which things go in life.

Start of the treatment, end of October 2006

introduces himself

My name isand I live in the city ofin the Netherlands.

I saw an announcement on the website of Linda Evans stating that she was looking for candidates for example treatments to be displayed on her website.  The candidate had to be willing to reveal his identity on the internet as well as most of the problems he was suffering from and he had to be willing to make a few videos in the course of the treatment.

I sent an e-mail, and later I contacted Linda Evans by telephone. Then I filled in the questionnaire. Linda sensed some of my patterns over the telephone and treated me from a distance for a couple of days to see if I reacted well. I did. I felt the first results. The distance treatment with the purpose of solving all or most of the problems that I had been suffering from for the past 20 years, had started. We have never met. I estimate that we live at a distance of about 400 km from each other.

I am 43 years old. I am a paediatric nurse and I have been studying medicine since the start of the new academic year (beginning of September). It is a four-year training programme instead of the normal six-year training leading to the degree of Doctor of Medicine (general practitioner). The six-year training programme only offers theory lessons in the first three academic years. In the four-year programme, the subject matter of these first three years is given in the first year. Students are supposed to master the material of the first academic year thanks to their previous studies, as in my case nursing studies. Therefore, I only need to study the subject matter of the second and third year. There is an examination on the material of the second and third year every five weeks. I have passed the entrance examination for these studies.

I work in the weekends and I have to study during the week.

For many years, I have had physical and emotional problems, which, 20 years ago, nearly drove me to suicide. But I decided to go on with my life and to deal with my problems. In the course of the past 20 years, I have used many alternative therapies and I invested almost all my money in them. Unfortunately, I still have many problems in spite of all those therapies.  I have undergone and I have applied quite a lot of techniques in order to solve my problems. But time and time again, the positive effect was not clearly noticeable and I did not get any better.

I still have an inferiority complex, fear of failure, depressive symptoms, studying/learning difficulties, digestive problems, skin and hair problems, complaints of tiredness and underweight. I am still not happy with myself and my life although I do a lot to feel happy. Neither am I able to attract the right woman in my life and to build a fine and steady relationship. In addition, I also have sexual problems (premature ejaculation).

List of the therapies I have had

Homeopathy (both classical and complex), acupuncture, bioresonance, ondevit, well-balanced – inside-out, orthomolecular medicine, phytotherapy, touch for health, various diets and detoxication cures, lavage of the large intestine by means of probiotics, reiki, EFT/TAT/BSFF (emotional freedom techniques), hypnosis/self-hypnosis, meditation, spiritual healings, positive thinking – affirmations.

Various problem issues

. I am very unhappy about my looks. I am tall (196 cm), skinny (I weigh 80 kg) and I started to lose my hair at the age of 20, which means that I am balding. When I started to lose my hair, this was a disaster for me. Although I have more or less accepted it now, it still has a negative effect on my self-image. When I see myself in the mirror, I feel terribly ugly, and I have a terrible feeling of shame and pain.  People sometimes call me ‘tall’ or ‘baldhead’. It makes me feel sad and ashamed about the way I look. Moreover, I feel unattractive and uninteresting to women because of my looks. I have the feeling that I am an abnormal and ‘unlovable’ person.

. I am very concerned about being tall and skinny. For some reason or other, I simply do not manage to put on weight.

. I can’t concentrate well when I am studying. I get distracted by other things and I give them my attention. Sometimes I am too concerned with the things that keep me busy emotionally. Then I get stuck in that emotion and I have more difficulty concentrating.

. I am intelligent, although I often feel stupid. Some things I understand at once, but it takes a while before I understand other things. I notice that I have difficulty memorizing and remembering large amounts of subject matter. At an exam, I am not able to reproduce or to apply the material I have studied immediately. I also find it difficult to make a distinction between the most important information and less important information. When there is something I fail to grasp quickly, I feel very stupid. I go tense, and I don’t manage to understand it anymore. When there is something I fail to grasp, I feel anxious, frustrated and inferior.

. I almost died of acute intestinal problems at the age of 20. The last 30 cm of my small intestine had died and caused intestinal obstruction. It had to be removed. I have had digestive problems ever since, as well as many symptoms of flatulence, belching and a bloated/agitated feeling in my stomach. I often have abdominal pain, which is made worse by mental symptoms. I suffer from severe, chronic diarrhoea. I always have loose stools and I need to go the toilet several times a day. I am sensitive to intestinal infections, which aggravates the diarrhoea. Four or five times a year, I suffer from severe diarrhoea for weeks on end. Then I sometimes have such terrible abdominal cramps that make me bend over in pain.

. I have suffered from eczema since I was seven years old. My eczema has worsened over the years. It starts in September or a bit later and it disappears completely somewhere around May. It starts with small spots and follicles that itch a little, on the outside of my elbows, the middle finger of my right hand and sometimes also on the ring finger of my right hand. In a few weeks’ time, they turn into fiery red large spots that itch terribly and that may burst and start to bleed. My eczema has worsened in the last couple of years to the extent that I sometimes can’t work because of it. I have small spots of eczema on my shins. I have severe itching on my lower legs, which could almost be called pain.

. I get cold easily because I am underweight. In winter, I need a couple of T-shirts, extra blankets and a couple of jumpers to stay warm to sleep. I often feel tired and I lack energy/vitality. I have a chronic cold in the nose.

. I often suffer from tension headache and from a painful neck. I also have back pain, particularly pain in the lower back and sometimes my shoulder blade muscles are tense. My health is not great, but it is not really bad either. I often don’t feel well (tired, not much energy, a bit sickly, rash in the groin area, some minor pains and cramps all over my body).

. I don’t have enough energy and I ‘m easily tired, but I can continue for a long time due to willpower and discipline. Sometimes I’m so tired that I have to drag myself through everything. I need to sleep for 30 minutes twice a day.

The mere thought of things that cost much effort, makes me tired.

. I have difficulty attracting nice women. I feel very insecure towards women. When there is a woman I like, I’m afraid to walk over to her because I tense up completely (emotionally and physically). I easily feel rejected or not good enough for a woman. I have had a few relationships, but they never lasted long. My longest relationship lasted for six months. I didn’t have a relationship in the last three years. My relationships always came to an end because of my insecurity, which made me afraid to lose her or of not being good enough. My unrequited desire for a woman I like are a great source of concern and frustration for me.

. I am ashamed of my height, of being too skinny, of being bald, of my parents/descent. I am ashamed of being single (of not having a girlfriend).

. I feel inferior about my descent:  I come from a working-class family.

I also feel inferior to people who are attractive, self-confident and who seem to have made it in life. I feel inferior to people who seem to be much more intelligent and more sophisticated than me. As a matter of fact, I feel inferior quite often, as if I am not good enough. I often feel insecure in my relationships with people because of these feelings of inferiority.

. I often feel insecure when I have to do something. I am easily afraid of making mistakes and of failing. I’m afraid of not doing something well. Now that I am studying again, I often feel insecure because there are certain things that I don’t know and that I should know. That regularly gives me tension headaches.

. There are many situations where I feel insecure. I usually feel insecure in groups and my reaction can be very tense. I go silent or I go along with people and I’m afraid to express my own opinion. I am afraid that they will think I’m abnormal or weird.

At home, with my parents, I sometimes feel very insecure. And when I have to perform, I feel very insecure. The intensity can vary greatly from feeling a bit uncomfortable and having a slight uneasy feeling in my stomach to feeling very insecure and having abdominal cramps/abdominal pain or diarrhoea and almost starting to feel sick.

. I go tense and I avoid certain situations because of my fear of failure. I have a fear of failure when it comes to things such as love, sex, sports, dancing (I am rather clumsy), studying exams, making contact with people, performing (medical) actions. I have terrible exam stress. That results from my fear of not being able to remember things well, of my fear of not having enough time to study everything thoroughly, of my fear of not understanding certain parts of the subject matter.

. Contacts with people can be very difficult because I feel too insecure. I’m afraid to make contact and meeting people is awkward because I talk and react in a constrained manner. That puts people off and therefore I feel rejected and even more insecure. I may then react in a very constrained way.

. I often feel ill at ease with people. I often feel threatened because I think that they are better than me and that they will see me as a stupid, weak, ugly person. I particularly don’t feel at ease with people I don’t know. I often try to avoid contacts. I am afraid to be thought of as ridiculous or abnormal. I am afraid of being hurt, of being laughed at, I am afraid of being turned down, of not being able to express myself well, etc. I don’t like to go out because I feel ill at ease and therefore I can’t really enjoy myself or I’m afraid do to so.

. The fear of being laughed at is an old fear, and has often restricted me. I’m afraid that people will laugh at me if I do not know what to say anymore (for example in a presentation or a group conversation), or when I say something wrong. I do not feel at ease in group conversations. I am afraid I’ll be the odd man out, afraid I won’t be able to smoothly join in the conversation, afraid I’ll be abnormal. I am afraid to ask questions because they might think I am stupid. I am afraid I’ll become insecure and I tense up as a result. I do not want others to see me insecure, nervous or clumsy. I am ashamed of that. Ever since my early childhood, I have felt uncomfortable in a group.

. When people say something about me, I will very easily think it is with ill intentions. When they pay me a compliment, I don’t take it as a compliment. I rather think that they are kissing my feet or that they are trying to get me to do something.

. At work, there are sometimes small frictions or conflicts because I react emotionally to my colleagues and vice versa. When they are critical or when they make a remark, I tend to react defensively or violently. Since I only work during the weekends now, I have difficulty developing good relationships with the children and their parents. I need time to develop good relationships with people. It takes me some time to get used to new people, it takes a while to feel familiar.

. I have stage fright. I feel insecure when I have to say something in or to a group of people. It stops me from speaking in public places.

. I am afraid of being single forever, or of getting seriously ill, of growing old, of being ugly, of not being good enough, of not knowing something, of not being a good doctor, of losing people that are dear to me, of not becoming happy or of remaining unhappy.

. I feel like I have to prove myself to myself to feel good about myself or to feel good enough. I feel like I have to prove myself to the girl I like or to men (to show that I am man enough). I need my parents’ approval and respect, so I think I also try to prove to them that I am not a loser and that I can do good things.

. I can be very pessimistic, I often take things to heart, particularly my own problems (women, my looks, how to improve my attractiveness, health, how to improve my health).

. I get disappointed easily and then I grow quiet (I withdraw into myself), I become curt, and I may become edgy and irritable with people I know well. Since I am disappointed, I experience things as negative. And then I think that only negative things will happen in the future as well. I often feel easily disappointed or thrown off balance.

. I worry easily. I am constantly fretting. I’m thinking a lot about how to solve my problems. I am greatly concerned that things will not work out well, for example, regarding a woman/love, my career, my health or financial matters.

. I have overall negative expectations. I mostly think that I will not manage to do things or that some things are just not meant to be for me and I usually don’t see opportunities or success. I am quick to think that things won’t turn out well (particularly when it concerns women, health, looks), although I am still motivated to keep working on those things. When it comes to love, I assume that she will not like me anyway, that she will turn me down, that she will hurt my feelings.

. It doesn’t take much to make me feel down, especially when it has to do with love and with my looks. I am easily discouraged when there is a certain technique or knowledge that I am unable to master in a short time, I get discouraged easily or when the contact with my parents is difficult again. Sometimes I really feel powerless, especially in matters of love.

. I feel depressed and down. There has been a gloomy overtone in my moods for the past few years. Most of the time, there is some sort of sadness, disappointment, desperation in the back of my mind. I have a negative outlook on life.  This is reinforced by the fact that I don’t manage to solve my problems and to improve my situation, something which I’m terribly longing for.

. I regularly feel desperate. Sometimes I have feelings of black despair, when I don’t manage to solve certain problems or to achieve certain goals. I feel desperate because so far nothing has helped to solve my physical and emotional problems. I can feel terribly desperate, sad and down when I’m trying to look attractive but I don’t succeed.

. I can be very irritable, when nothing much seems to work out in my life and my life feels like a struggle, when every single success comes with a hard fight and when I have to overcome a lot of setbacks. I often have to overcome disappointments and find new courage to go on. Then I tend to be rather curt and react violently, and often my reactions are condemnatory and reproachful.

. I have difficulty expressing my feelings. I often swallow or suppress my feelings, particularly feelings of irritability or the feeling of liking someone very much. I tend to bottle up lots of things, mostly irritations about other people.

. It’s important to me that other people like me. I try to comply with other people’s wishes and to meet their demands. I am constantly thinking about what other people think of me, about the clothes that I wear, the way I talk, the things I do, the way I look, the things I find important. For all those things, I like to have other people’s approval.

. I often feel tense. I often feel that tension in my abdomen. My abdomen is tense, I cannot think straight. I tend to be very restless, insecure, rushed and tense due to stress.

. I do many things reluctantly. I have an aversion to things that cost a lot of trouble. Just thinking about it makes me tired and gives me a headache. I feel very reluctant about studying many hours, it takes a lot of effort and I have a hard time relaxing. Apart from that, I do my job as a nurse with ill grace, but I need it to support myself. My work often takes a lot of energy.

. I am sensitive to criticism. I often experience it as a serious personal attack; as if I am not good or as if I am wrong from the very start. I am sensitive to criticism about my looks. I am very sensitive to criticism from women about my masculinity, my attractiveness, etc. I feel easily attacked and then I may take rather innocent remarks as criticism. I am particularly sensitive about everything that has to do with my looks, my success with women and my professional functioning. I am quick to go on the defensive. I can take things pretty far and sometimes I  often keep coming back to certain subjects.

. I am not always able to say ‘no’ when I am afraid that the other person might not like me anymore. I can be easily manipulated by people on whom I feel dependent or when I don’t want to lose their sympathy.

. I sometimes have a hard time making up my mind, I am sometimes afraid of making the wrong decision. I regularly ask other people for their opinion.

. I can’t adapt easily to new situations. I always need to get used to things and to adjust once again. I am afraid of new things. I’m afraid I will not be able to meet the new demands or live up to people’s expectations or I fear that the new situation will be worse than the previous one.

. I am aching for love. I can’t love myself and I don’t get enough love from other people either. I can love other people, but I do feel inhibited to do so. I am afraid of being hurt or of being turned down. I find it hard to give compliments. My parents never gave me much support and appreciation, so this is a problem for me. I have difficulty giving appreciation.

. Things often take a lot of trouble, there are lots of obstacles, and I have many setbacks.

. I have organizational skills and most of the time I work efficiently. But when I am assigned new tasks or when I find myself in new situations, I always need some time to make things run smoothly again.

. I sometimes sleep very fitfully, I toss and turn and I have lots of dreams (not nice dreams but chaotic, confusing dreams, especially about my youth). It often happens that I still feel tired when I wake up. It often happens that I am reluctant to start the new day, when the alarm clock goes off. I am in a bad mood when I get up. I am not looking forward to yet another day, which will probably bring the same problems as the days/weeks/months/years before.

. I have sexual problems: I come too soon. I sometimes come after half a minute, especially when I feel tense.

Results of the treatment

The results were checked every three to four months, and the first two check-ups happened after one month of treatment. Below you can read a list of the results per check-up. Jan belongs to the middle group regarding the rate of the results. He got 4 hours of therapy a day.

First series of results (end of November 2006, after one month of treatment)

.  I can now study something in six hours, where it took me about 10 hours before. That is a remarkable improvement. I can clearly better concentrate when I study. I no longer have the tendency to run away. My reluctance to study has decreased a lot. I actually rather enjoy studying now. I am also finding it easier to memorize the material that I study and I understand things faster.

. I feel better, I feel more happy.

. My feelings of inferiority have diminished.

. My fear of women is diminishing and I am less tense when I meet women.

. I’m no longer as consumed by the longing for a woman as I used to be. I like that because I am now better able to focus on other things that are more important at this moment.

. I can better accept my body. I am less concerned about my height or with my baldness. When I look at myself in the mirror I no longer immediately react by thinking, hey, what an ugly guy!

. My relationships with people have improved, they are smoother. I’m no longer as consumed by what other people think of me.

. The relationship with my parents is also much more easy-going and I do not get as easily irritated anymore. I do not tend to oppose to them as quickly anymore and I can better tolerate their criticism. The last few visits to my parents passed much more relaxed, much more pleasant. And I noticed that I really enjoyed that.

. Working with my colleagues is very enjoyable and is running smoother as well. I notice that it is easier for me to deal with criticism or comments coming from them and that I can play along with their reactions more easily.

. At the sports centre, the interactions with other people are running smoother. Now I find it easier to make contact with new people.

. I can get over a disappointment more easily, and I like that. I can regain my balance more quickly when I was thrown off balance or when I panicked too quickly. I find it easier to pull myself together again and to look at things from a different perspective.

. I had no fear at all at the last exam and I could examine and answer the questions very calmly and very well.  Despite the fact that I did not have a thorough knowledge of the material and that I got many questions which I couldn’t answer right away.  In the past I would have started to panic, which would have reduced my chances of passing my exam. This is a remarkable improvement.

Second series of results (end of December 2006, after a second month of treatment)

. My belly has calmed down and my eczema has diminished. The fact that my eczema has diminished is remarkable, as it normally only gets worse in winter and only starts to clear up in spring.

. I have more energy than before. It is remarkable how easy it is for me to keep on working and studying at the same time.

. I am less sensitive to the cold. Also, my nose is stuffed-up less often. I don’t have a runny nose as much anymore, I am using a handkerchief less often now.

. The tension in my neck and lower back has gone.

. The  stomach cramps due to insecurity and tension have diminished.

. My overall health has certainly improved, despite the much heavier burden on me.

. I can totally accept my body as it is, including my baldness. I don’t feel ashamed anymore about my body.

. I no longer feel inferior with respect to my descent or towards people who are more attractive and more popular than me.

. I don’t feel as inferior towards women either anymore.

. I have become less afraid of getting hurt or of being disappointed by women.

. In general, I feel more confident in my interactions with people. I am no longer obsessed with how people will react to me. At the sports centre, I am less consumed by whether or not people are watching me.

. I have gained a lot of confidence regarding studying, so that I can better study.

. My fear of failure with respect to my studies and examinations has improved a lot. I suffer considerably less from exam stress.

. I’m more positive and I think more frequently that I can actually do it and that something is indeed achievable for me.

. I am better at putting things in perspective and letting go of things. When something happens that still really upsets me, I can put it in perspective and I can quickly regain my balance.

. I think more in terms of solutions rather than of whatever may go wrong. My expectations are somewhat more positive and I have more confidence in the future.

. I am less down because of love issues and my attractiveness.

. I feel less easily discouraged in all kinds of situations and I have become more determined to go on.

. I am considerably less often depressed.

. I don’t feel desperate as often anymore.

. I am most certainly less touchy.

. I’m less afraid of getting older or of staying single.

. I have become more patient.

. I feel less agitated and I am more capable of not rushing myself and taking a break when I need to.

. I am stronger in stress situations, I remain calmer, I’m less tense.

. I take more pleasure in my work and studies. I worry less about the pressure of work at the hospital.

. I can more easily adapt to new situations and I have less fear of new things. When being assigned new tasks, I am capable of making things run more smoothly more quickly.

. The relationship with my mother is more enjoyable and we are less critical of each other.

. I am less offending towards other people.

. I am less sensitive to criticism. I feel less easily attacked and I am not getting defensive as easily anymore.

. When I do not get what I want, I have less trouble adapting. I am growing to be more mature and feel less like a victim.

. In interactions, I behave less forced or unreal, I am becoming more real little by little.

. I have become a better listener, even when something is bothering me.

. I have more appreciation for myself and I feel less like I do not deserve things.

. I expect less to be able to deal with everything at the same time. I try to plan more or to set priorities.

. It is easier for me to give compliments to other people and to show appreciation.

. I need less confirmation and compliments.

Third series of results (early April 2007)

. Studying is going better and better. I am finding more and more pleasure in studying.

. I can memorize faster and I understand things faster than before. I understand complex things faster than before. It is more easy for me to absorb the material.

. I panic less easily when I do not understand something.

. For the first time, I notice that I can remember studied material for a longer time and that I can retrieve/reproduce it faster. That gives me a lot of confidence and it makes me feel calmer.

. Because I can remember things for longer now, I can more easily find connections between different specialties within medicine, such as for example immunology and clinical genetics.

. I can also more easily make a distinction between important and less important subject matter.

. When I study or when I have exams,  I’m no longer nervous or afraid and I do no longer have abdominal cramps.

. My health has slightly improved. There is less tension in my stomach and in my body. My intestines are functioning better, I am having less bowel problems.

. I clearly have less eczema than I did in previous years.

. I feel more and more relaxed when I’m with women and it is easier for me to make contact with women. A couple of times, a girl spontaneously started talking to me, which I liked very much. Negative reactions from women affect me less and less. I feel somewhat more comfortable around a woman that I really like. I’m also less inhibited .

. Making new contacts with people has improved considerably. I talk and react in a more relaxed way, I can casually join in with the others. I wasn’t able to do that before. As a result, people react to me in a nicer way too. I’m more confident when I make contact, I have the courage to speak up faster, I am less afraid of how people might react.

. Remarks about my length affect me less.

. My work has become very enjoyable. Everything is getting better and better and more pleasant at work. Interactions at work are more and more enjoyable. I get more appreciation and sympathy from people at work. There is more mutual interest for one another.

. Working with the parents of the sick children, who are often very anxious, concerned, tense, is going quite smoothly as well and dealing with those children is actually very enjoyable, despite the fact that I now only work at weekends, and that therefore I don’t have much time to develop good relationships with the children. Dealing with them is now very easy after only a short while, which I had never expected.

. My fear of being laughed at and the fear that I feel when I’m a group of people, both of which have been present ever since my early childhood, have strongly diminished.  During the last group meetings of medical students, I felt considerably more self-confident and more at ease. I was less insecure to ask questions. When I was mocked for my critical remarks, it felt less like I was viewed negatively. I no longer let it upset me. The fear of being laughed at or of being thought of as stupid, has considerably decreased as well. I am much more relaxed and more fluent at group meetings. Which I enjoy very much !! It is wonderful to feel at home in a group. I leave the group feeling good and I do not have any headache or cramps afterwards, I do not feel ashamed anymore afterwards.

. I am somewhat less afraid of speaking in front of a group.

. I feel more stable in general.

. I feel less insecure about things I have to do. I have more self-confidence.

. I seldom panic anymore. In case of new tasks or situations, I manage to get things organized and make things go well in the short term better and better.

. I continue to get better at putting things in perspective and letting go of things. I am less and less disappointed and upset about all kinds of things.

. I am less angry, aggressive or highly frustrated in interactions with people. I am considerably less annoyed with people.

. Feelings of guilt are fading away. I no longer apologize when I feel guilty. I find it easier to admit when I am guilty of something.

. I am less and less sensitive to criticism. Therefore, I am less easily upset in various situations.

. The relationship with my parents is going better and better and the things I reproached them for (about the past) are fading away. We are less and less critical of each other.

. I am less close-mouthed and less afraid of opening up to people. I am less afraid of coming across as ridiculous or of being rejected. I can express myself a little better and I have more courage to express my feelings.

. Step by step, I feel I dare say ‘no’ more easily and I’m no longer afraid of losing people’s sympathy.

. I am no longer jealous of men who look good, who are full of self-confidence and who are successful.

. I am acting and reacting more and more maturely.

. I am no longer offensive towards other people.

. I continue to be a better listener, even when something is bothering me.

. I am able to appreciate myself more and more.

. It’s getting easier for me to compliment other people.

. I still like to be acknowledged by other people, but I am no longer as preoccupied with it anymore and I do not feel so bad anymore when I am not.

. I can more easily give and receive love and I’m no longer afraid of being hurt.

. I feel more and more calm and I rush myself less, even when I’m very busy.

. There are many things which I no longer do with reluctance.

Fourth series of results (early July 2007)

.This year I successfully passed my medical exams, I studied the programme of the first three years of medical school in one year. Studying is going very well. Absorbing and retaining the subject matter or memorizing and remembering it, is going faster has further improved. At the last examination, I knew about everything I had studied. I was able to answer 80% of the questions immediately. I had to think for a moment to answer the rest. Before the treatment, there were many questions I had to think about, I did not have the information immediately available.

. In the past, I almost always weighed less than 80 kg because I lost many kilos of weight due to diarrhoea. Sometimes, I would lose up to four kilos in a few days’ time. Over the last few months, I have no longer suffered from diarrhoea that lasts for several weeks, as I did before, regardless of all the pressure, regardless of all the stress. Before, I had to go to the toilet up to 15 times a day, even outside the periods of severe diarrhoea. Then I felt like my body was being completely emptied. I only had loose, sometimes watery stools. Now I go to the toilet about four to five times a day. Two of the three times, I have solid stools, one to two times, they are thin or loose. But this is already much better than it used to be. Now I weigh 82 kg. So, the weight difference is not that big yet. Nevertheless, people say that I look healthier and more powerful. I look broader and more muscular, they tell me. I seem to have a fuller face.

. I no longer suffer from acid indigestion.

. The flatulence that I used to suffer from all the time, has decreased a lot.

. I still feel abdominal pain right after dinner, and then I need to go the toilet immediately. Otherwise, I have severe abdominal pain. I no longer suffer from abdominal pain in between meals, which I used to feel almost all the time before.

. I have less acne.

. My sensitivity to the cold has diminished by half. My nose is no longer stuffed up with a cold.

. My tension headaches have decreased, but are still present.

. In general, I am a little less tired. The intense fatigue I regularly suffered from, has greatly diminished.

. I feel much better overall, physically, and doing things I don’t like to do, doesn’t have a negative effect on my energy levels anymore.

. Unfortunately, the problem of coming too soon, has not improved. However, there has been another improvement: an orgasm is much more enjoyable now than before, the pleasure is much more intense now. Before, an orgasm was only a discharge of tension and now it is different. Now, I understand what other people mean by the feeling of bliss that comes with an orgasm.

. People hardly ever call me ‘baldhead’ or ‘tall’ anymore.

. With regard to women, I no longer feel I am not attractive or abnormal or not ‘loveable’. More and more I feel I’m not that bad. I get compliments about my looks, something I never got before. In the hospital canteen, I notice that women keep an eye on me. Women react differently to me. They let me feel that I look more masculine. I get a different kind of attention from women than before. Women look at me more and try to get eye contact with me more often than before.

. I no longer feel ashamed of being alone (without a partner). I no longer feel ashamed of my sexual feelings either.

. The desire for a woman has clearly diminished and is also less painful.

. I feel more clear-headed, because now I am no longer preoccupied with all kinds of thoughts and frustrations that used to be there all the time.

. I feel a little less tired when I wake up. I am also in a better mood when I get up and I am less reluctant to start a new day. Before, I had to drag myself out of bed. Now, I can get out of bed faster and more easily.

. I don’t feel stupid often anymore. Now I feel more like I’m allowed to forget something from time to time as well. I no longer think I’m that stupid when there is something that I do not understand. I stay calm and I do not panic as easily anymore when there is something that I do not understand. And I’m confident that I will understand it in the end.

. I am less afraid to make mistakes or to fail. Before, I would sometimes get so nervous that everything went wrong or that I was afraid to do anything at all. I no longer feel as insecure in my job as a nurse. Since my fear of failure has strongly diminished in all kinds of situations, I no longer avoid those situations.

. I feel much more confident in a group of people. I feel at ease with strangers. I’m almost not afraid anymore when I meet other people. Therefore, I no longer avoid situations.

. My self-esteem has greatly increased. Whereas I used to feel inferior in all kinds of situations, now I more feel like: I can achieve what others achieve. I am actually capable of something too, my opinion is valuable too. I know I’m intelligent and I’m actually worth it. I no longer feel like I’m completely at the bottom and others are completely at the top.

. I disapprove less of myself and I’m less critical of myself when I’m with people who know better or who are better at something than me.

. I’m less impressed by people who can express themselves very well.  Also, I have higher self-esteem with a woman I like.

Fifth series of results (end of November 2007)

. The relationship with my parents is completely different from how it used to be. The insecurity that I would always feel with my parents, has gone. I no longer need my parents’ approval or respect, I no longer feel that I have to prove myself towards my parents.   The relationship with my parents is much more friendly and open than before. My father feels much more at ease with me. My father has become very interested in me and he thinks along with me about my future. Whereas before, he would only be annoyed about me and he always made me feel that I was a failure, or that I was wrong. My parents understand and support me a lot more. I celebrated the 45th wedding anniversary of my parents together with my family. This happened in a very relaxed and enjoyable atmosphere. I have never experienced a family gathering as so nice and pleasant.

. At this moment, I’m having classes together with 23-year old youngsters. My interactions with this new group of students are pleasant and relaxed. They immediately integrated me into their little group, which surprised me quite a lot, because that is something unusual in my life. I feel at home in the group.

. Lately, I have often been told that particularly young children feel safer with me and laugh more when they are with me than with others. Parents have often told me that children do not panic that much with me, whilst they sometimes do with others. To some extent, this used to be like this before as well. But it has increased even more.

. My stage fright has decreased. I’ve become much better at giving lectures. I am fairly good at giving a presentation for a group of students or doctors, even when I do not know everything. I can better accept it when I make a mistake in a learning environment. Now, my attitude is: if I make a mistake, that’s that, I will learn from it. Before, I would not have given a lecture, or I would have been afraid of being seen as stupid.

. I am no longer preoccupied with trying to meet other people’s demands and wishes, I stand up for myself much more now.

. I no longer feel that I am not worthy of all kinds of things, like being healthy and feeling good. I no longer feel I deserve things to be difficult for me.

. I no longer feel the need to exaggerate when I tell something.

. I no longer fear becoming seriously ill.

. I am no longer afraid of staying single.

. My shoulder blade muscles are no longer tense.

. I regularly had cramps in my calves when I was asleep or when I woke up. This has diminished.

. I sleep better. I am calmer when I sleep, my sleep is more relaxed and deeper. I think less when I’m asleep, I no longer work or study in my sleep. Although I sleep better, I am still tired all the time.

Sixth series of results (end of April 2008)

. Overall, I have become a rather light-hearted person.

. My health is fine.  My intestines are functioning normally for the first time in 24 years.  I go to the toilet a couple of times a day now and I have normal solid stools.  I have gained another kg in weight, I now weigh 83 kg.  I no longer suffer from abdominal pain immediately after dinner and I do not have to go to the toilet anymore right after dinner.

. Most of the time, my eczema is completely absent.  However, it sometimes comes back mildly and then it disappears again.

. For the first time since the start of the treatment, my fatigue has improved. The extremely intense fatigue I had sometimes felt, had already gone. But the chronic feeling of tiredness had not changed so far. Now, this has improved a little. I have a little more energy. I no longer need to sleep for 30 minutes twice a day.

. I sleep very well now. I have no trouble falling asleep and I enjoy a good night’s rest. For a while, I applied the NPL self-treatment for an hour before going to bed. It was remarkable how fast this made me fall asleep and what a good night’s rest I had then. I slept calm and relaxed. Immediately after I started the self-treatment, I no longer had trouble falling asleep and this has not changed ever since.

. Remembering what I have studied, has still further improved: I less easily forget things I have learned through practical exercises and which I have been able to practice afterwards. However, when I give a consultation or when I do an internship or when I practise some skills, I have noticed that I easily forget the things I just learned and I have trouble performing them. This still has to improve a lot.

. I clearly feel less insecure and I’m less afraid of making mistakes when I have to do something. I feel much calmer inside in difficult situations. I stay calm, I am confident that it will work out fine or that I will do just fine. Because I feel more confident, it is much easier for me to complete an assignment.

. During practical exercises, I can better focus on what I need to focus on. I am less preoccupied with the idea that I will not be able to do it or with what other people must be thinking. Consequently, I am less of a bungler during practical exercises.

. I have clearly become more deft as well. This is not because I have become more confident. I have simply become more deft.

. I am no longer discouraged when I do not manage to quickly get a grasp of something new I have to learn. I stay calm, I am confident I will manage to do it, I’m no longer afraid or in panic.

. I can deal somewhat better with new situations and new requirements and expectations that are set. I have a little more confidence that I will be able to make it work. However, I still feel insecure and tense when I have to learn something new that requires some skills and competence.

. I almost don’t have any stage fright anymore. I had to give a one hour lecture to a group of 60 students. I was only a little nervous at the beginning, but after that I quickly felt comfortable. I managed to give the lecture (I actually had to teach) without any trouble and I did it well.

. I no longer feel my life is a battle. However, something that I still experience as a battle is ‘love’ (love with a woman). There are many fewer disappointments in my life, except for the area of love. There are fewer barriers, there are fewer setbacks. There are still setbacks, but I can better deal with them and once again summon up my courage and move on. I’m more able to think everything will work out fine.

. In the past, I would be extremely emotional in certain situations and I would freeze up completely as a result. This doesn’t happen anymore, I can get over an emotion, I no longer remain stuck in it. It doesn’t paralyze me anymore; an emotion is not completely overwhelming anymore.

. I do not care anymore whether people like me or not. What other people might think of me almost doesn’t preoccupy me anymore. I would quite often feel ashamed when I thought about what other people might think of me. This has gone.

. Some more fears have vanished: the fear of getting old, the fear of not being a good doctor and the fear of losing the ones I love.

. I clearly feel less tense. This has improved remarkably. In the past, I felt tense nearly all the time. This has gone.

. I have become somewhat better at decision making. I am a little more confident that I will make the right decision and afterwards I am a little more confident that I have made the right decision.

. I am a little more lenient towards people who complain. I am also a little more lenient with myself.

. I am less angry when I do not manage to find something.

Seventh series of results (end of August 2008)

. This year I have successfully completed my medical training. Despite the enormous stress I have been under, I have been able to successfully complete the past academic year.  Linda’s therapy has certainly contributed to this success.

. I don’t feel there have been major changes since the last check-up at the end of April. The situation is about status-quo. I have made a lot of progress since I started with the therapy almost two years ago.  However, some issues have proved to be very persistent, such as headaches, fatigue, sexual problems, love.  Similarly, the feeling that I’m doing something the wrong way or that I’m afraid to do something the wrong way, is still cropping up from time to time.

Eighth series of results (end of December 2008)

. My intestines are functioning well. I’m also less prone to bowel infections. When it does happen again, it passes more quickly.

. I haven’t had a headache for three months now. I only occasionally suffer from a minor and slight headache anymore.

. I used to be allergic to medication; this has improved. I also have less problems taking pain-killers, which I had an aversion towards before.

. My tiredness is gradually improving.

. So far, I have rarely suffered from throat infections anymore, not even when I had a nose cold in September. Before, I had a throat infection at least once a month.

. In the past, I very often had a really bad cramp in my neck, which radiated towards my shoulders. This has completely disappeared.

. I no longer feel drained after interacting with people who are infirm or invalid.

. When I meet people, I feel more at ease and I am better able to sense things. As a result I’m better at picking up signals from others, and consequently I know better how to react and what to say. I’m less afraid to say something wrong. I’m less upset by people’s reactions. I can stay calm and I can better respond to other people’s reactions.

. The attitude of women towards me has changed. They appreciate me more and they have more interest in me.

. I feel a little more love for other people  and I am better at showing and giving love.

. I’m gradually getting better at expressing my feelings. I’m no longer ashamed of my feelings. These feelings of shame often made me feel insecure in all kinds of situations. Now I feel less inhibited to talk about my feelings and as a result I can talk to people more fluently. I tell more, and more easily than before.

. Because my interactions with people have improved in various ways, my relationships with other people are easier and warmer.

. My health, my spiritual growth and my career are still very important to me, but I’m less obsessed by them. I can talk about it in a more light-hearted way. When people remark that I’m very preoccupied with these matters, I no longer feel attacked and I can somewhat joke about it myself.

. I’ve always been enormously critical of myself, I have always blamed myself for being a fool or for not having done things differently, etc. Now I can feel more love for myself, now I’m able to say: that was stupid, I might have done it differently, but better next time. I can forgive myself, I’m a little nicer to myself.

. I feel much less tense in the presence of a woman. I can easily have a conversation with a woman without being afraid of her reaction. I’m less afraid of intimacy with women.

. I can relax better and enjoy things more. I’m gradually becoming more positive, I can better concentrate on what is going well and what is going wrong in my life is no longer the only thing on my mind.

. The fact that things go wrong when I want to buy something, hasn’t happened anymore. That happened quite frequently in the past.

. I can better deal with the combination of  ‘working, studying, having to finish another task time and again’. This is less stressful to me; I feel more like: ‘I can do this’.

. I can keep a clear structure in the conversation when I practise consultation skills, I no longer mix up questions, confusing the patient as a result. I feel more confident when I present the questions, and as a result I can keep a better structure and I don’t ask questions randomly anymore. However, my presentation of questions is still too elaborate and too suggestive. One might think that I’m getting better at keeping structure through exercise, but I feel I really have a better talent for it. The improvement is the result of the breaking of patterns and not of exercise.

. After the anamnesis I also had difficulties in carrying out the right physical examination and I didn’t know what I had to pay attention to. This is going better. I am better able to put given information into words. I am better able to structure my thinking, talking and writing. Here too, I feel I have a talent I didn’t have before. Some more patterns that have been removed. However, I still have difficulties with clinical reasoning.

. Something that has already improved, comes back now and then, but after a few days or a week, it wears off once again. For a few weeks, I have also been troubled by the fear of not knowing something, but meanwhile this has improved once again.

Ninth series of results (end of August 2009)

. This year, I once again successfully finished a phase of my training to be a doctor. I still have one year to go.  As far as the therapy is concerned, there hasn’t been that much progress.

. There has been progress with regard to the fatigue, though. I had a trying and intense year and my fatigue improved a lot towards the end of the academic year. This hasn’t happened since the start of the treatment. But I would still like to feel much more energetic.

. I haven’t suffered from eczema in the last year, except for a few small spots that have quickly disappeared again.

. The improvement of my headache has remained stable, my headaches have improved a lot. I hardly ever suffer from headaches anymore. This remained a persistent issue in the past.

. I have been worrying about my future for a long time. I worried to the extent that it troubled me both at night when I was asleep and when I woke up in the morning. I would often wake up early, already worrying. Fortunately, this doesn’t happen anymore.

Tenth series of results (end of December 2009)

. In recent months, my energy level has gradually risen and I feel more energetic and healthier.

. My acne has almost completely disappeared and my eczema so far hasn’t returned either.

. My digestion is quite a lot better too and I barely feel any discomfort anymore.

. My medical training is going well.

. Meanwhile I have met a nice woman with whom I am having a fine intimate relationship. Fortunately, I no longer suffer from premature ejaculation and I enjoy sex more.

. I feel more confident and many people tell me I look good.

. In short, I’m very happy with how I have been doing so far.

Eleventh series of results (end of March 2010)

is doing very well. He is finishing his thesis and he has to do an internship for half a year from September onwards. Then he’ll have his medical degree. This is the last time this treatment will be reported on. The distance treatment is completed.

. My life has improved remarkably. There is much more peace and quiet in my life and I feel much more confident about life. I have more zest for life. Most days are going great. There’s a huge difference compared to three years ago, when most days were difficult and when I was depressed almost all the time.

. I like studying, doing the assignments I have to do. Before, I would do the same things with great distaste. Now I do things with enthusiasm. The same tasks are easier now.

I’m confident and I feel positive about the thesis I have to make. In the past, I would have feared I wouldn’t do it well and I would have thought I was too stupid to do it well.

. My expectations have become predominantly positive, I’m more optimistic, I’m more confident that I will actually succeed, I have courage. When negative thoughts crop up once more, they wear off quickly.

. I’ve become confident in dealing with new situations. I’m confident I will actually solve the problem. I’ve clearly become more flexible, I can very easily adjust to new things. I clearly feel less stressed about learning new skills.

. I can think more clearly and my memory has still further improved. I can understand and apply new and complex subjects more quickly. I can remember and apply newly learned skills straight away.

. I no longer feel depressed and exhausted during and after the night shifts. It was very difficult for me to stay awake and do the work. Thinking and dealing with problems was very difficult for me. This doesn’t happen anymore. Now, I can work two shifts in a row without sleeping. I can work the evening shift and the night shift, one after the other, without any problem. Before, I would have a difficult time around four o’clock in the morning during the night shift. Now, the night shift passes by smoothly, even when it is immediately preceded by an evening shift. Before, I felt completely washed out, even after a normal service. When I came home after an evening shift, then I would sleep badly during the day and I would be depressed when I woke up. Now I sleep very well after an evening shift and I have more energy when I wake up, I feel good and I feel like doing things.

. The relationship with my sisters has become very enjoyable. Before, my sisters were very close friends and I was on the outside. Now, the relationship between the three of us has become very enjoyable.

. At work, I rarely have problems with colleagues anymore. I have become very flexible. I can adapt very quickly, I can very quickly switch to a different job, without any more irritation or reluctance. I felt like I didn’t belong during the night shift; this has gone. I no longer feel like an outsider in other groups either. I feel part of the group and I can join in the fun.

. I feel much stronger when I’m with other people. I’m good at leading group conversations. I’m well able to intervene in a conversation and can steer the conversation in the right direction.

. I take on more responsibility instead of putting myself in a position of dependence or instead of standing aside. Before, when someone else was in charge, I used to shift to a dependent position and I would no longer take the initiative. This has changed now.

. I feel more and more love for other people.

. I have no more trouble dealing with women, I no longer have to prove myself towards a woman. I feel at ease with women.

. I’m less close-mouthed, I’m better at expressing myself, also towards women.

. I’m less impatient, I don’t get as angry anymore when there’s a setback. I deal with the situation and I ‘m able to calm down again. I used to have an urge to smash something when there was a setback. I no longer tend to do that anymore.

. I’m better at decision-making.

. I used to wake up early in the morning when I worried about something. This doesn’t happen anymore. Before, I used to be worn out when I woke up, as if I hadn’t slept at all. Now, I wake up feeling fit and rested.

. I’m no longer sensitive to the cold. I weigh 88 kg now, whereas before, my weight never rose above 80 kg.

20        Examples of patterns and energies

In this chapter the patterns of a psychopath-conman and of an autistic boy are described. Next, there are examples of energies.

Several patterns are described for each type of symptom. Some of them strongly resemble each other. But still, we’re dealing with separate patterns in the subconscious mind and each and every one of them has to be broken down. For example, there is a pattern of ‘there is no one’ and a pattern of ‘you are alone’. Although these patterns seem to tell the same thing, they are two different patterns in the subconscious mind. If we have removed the pattern of ‘there is no one’, we still have to remove the pattern of ‘you are alone’, in order to obtain results. In this case: for love and friendship to come.

The contents of patterns are usually stored in the form of concepts, as we know concepts. For example: ‘you oppose to authority’.

The contents may also be stored in the form of images or in the form of a story. What is imposed upon a person by the patterns, is present in the patterns in the form of images, which may or may not be accompanied by feelings and ideas (story form).

The information in the patterns is sometimes also stored in a way of which I don’t know its contents, but that is neither in concept form, neither in the form of images, nor in a story. In this case I get an impression of the contents when sensing the pattern.

There is a forth type of storage of information, but in a form that we do not know on earth. It seems like some kind of radiation field in which various variations of radiation have a different meaning. In that case I know what the pattern is about in broad outlines, but I can’t read it in detail. For example, I can sense it has something to do with the relationship between mother and child, but that’s all that I can detect.

Sometimes the patterns are stored in the form of ‘I’m inferior’. Sometimes in the form of ‘you are inferior’. Sometimes I describe the pattern in the form of ‘he is inferior’.  ‘He’ then refers to the owner of the pattern.  I use this form for the forms other than the concept form.

When the patterns cause illnesses or regulate chemical processes in the body or in the brain, then I can’t describe the contents of the patterns in detail, but merely in vague terms. This also goes for patterns that influence intelligence. For example, I’m talking about a substance A that influences a certain chemical process. I have no idea what substance this is or which reaction this is.  Someone who knows about chemical processes or about processes in the body (e.g. a doctor of medicine), will find much more information in the patterns than I do. And this person will also be able to read the information in more detail than I can.

In the following two examples (psychopathy and autism), there is no description of patterns that cause diseases. Therefore I’ll give an example of how I perceive the information about patterns of diseases:

‘A chemical A isn’t fully built up, the pattern contains the formula of this substance A that isn’t formed correctly. As a result this substance A contains an instability. Hence, this substance starts to react with other chemicals B in order to achieve stability in substance A.

Consequently, these chemicals B, which are vital, are broken down. Due to a shortage of these chemicals B, there are lots of bodily processes now that don’t occur normally anymore.’

The names of the people described below, are pseudonyms.

I describe lots of different patterns for each characteristic.  I do this in order to illustrate the large number of patterns that are present in the subconscious mind that are responsible for one single negative trait or that cause one single problem, and in order to demonstrate that, as a result, a serious effort is required to peel off all those patterns in order to remedy a problem.

20.1     Example of patterns of psychopathy

Patterns (and energies) in a psychopath-conman.

Patterns of Marc, a 35 year old psychopath–conman, with recurring imprisonments (recidivist). Marc has an extraordinary talent to swindle people out of large sums of money.

A. Patterns

I often see Marc’s patterns in the form of images. I see stories when I sense the patterns. For example: I see an image of a person who’s nervous, and the feeling that this person wants to prove himself is programmed along with this. When I describe the patterns in the form of images I describe them like: ‘he (Marc) is nervous and he wants to prove himself’.

When I sense the patterns in the form of concepts, then the pattern is present in the subconscious mind in the following way: ‘you are nervous and you have to prove yourself’. I then also describe it that way.

Sometimes I don’t see any images or I don’t sense any concepts in a pattern. However, the contents of the pattern still comes through; then I perceive the feeling that is contained in the pattern without sensing a concept or a story or seeing an image. In this case the pattern is described in the following way: ‘in situations in which he is under pressure, he gets very nervous’.

Patterns for swindling and manipulating

. You only feel good when you are swindling. When you swindle, you are a gentleman, because then you have the other in your power. When you are not swindling, you are nobody. When you are not swindling, you are nothing. When you are not swindling, you are subjected, you are the plaything of society. This is accompanied by a feeling of fear of that, hence the swindling.

. ‘You must con everyone, no one may escape it’. He considers it a matter of honour to con everyone. If he doesn’t succeed, he’s off balance, even if one single person escapes, he’s off balance. Therefore, he’ll con someone else as a revenge, as soon as possible and as often as possible and as much as possible, in order to compensate the loss. Everyone must be conned. He can’t live with failure, because everyone must be able to discover what a master-conman he is. If he can’t con, then they don’t know he’s a conman and then there are fewer people who know this and he can’t live with that.

. ‘You can persuade everyone, they always believe you, they can all be persuaded, those incredible dummies, you have them under control’. This pattern is connected to one of Marc’s subsouls that is programmed to put itself with the potential victim (in the programme surrounding the victim). The subsoul has power over the victim (because it’s programmed this way), and causes the victim to carry out the actions Marc wishes to occur. Hence the victims are powerless against Marc and hence his unexplainable power over people. The subsoul also makes people have boundless confidence in the story Marc is serving them up and they make them believe him unconditionally and trot out all the money Marc asks them or do whatever he asks them to do. However, a subsoul is something positive, but a subsoul may carry a pattern, which makes it negative. Black magicians and gurus or healers who are out for power, often have negatively programmed subsouls in their subconscious mind that put themselves with their victims and accomplish things for the black magician or cause the guru to have a huge following.

. ‘You’ve got power, they believe you, they are defenceless’. In this pattern, there’s also an overwhelming feeling of power and of being master over everything and everyone, a euphoric feeling of power and the feeling that nothing can happen to him, that he can’t fail, an overwhelming feeling of self-confidence and success. Linked to this pattern, there are several subsouls that place themselves with people and that make sure they do everything Marc wants them to do and that they follow his orders unconditionally, just like puppets on a string.

. People are objects to him, instruments he can use in order to get money and other things he strives for. He doesn’t feel like working, he is lazy, he doesn’t want to live in society like the others, which means going to work for a mere pittance. No, he wants to live in great style and he wants to lay his hands on the money he needs in order to do so, without having to make an effort for it. Therefore he mingles with rich people and he picks out his victims who will provide him with the money or with some other pleasure. He is always on the look-out for potential victims, in whatever group he finds himself. He studies everyone and looks at what he can get from everyone. He knows that he will get them where he wants them to be. When he’s chosen a victim he’ll pal up with him, develop a friendship, pretend to only have the victim’s best interest in mind. He deludes them with a fantastical story. At this moment one of his subsouls places itself with the other and arouses a euphoric state of desire and belief in this person. The other already imagines himself to be fabulously wealthy or whatever Marc has promised him. Once they have been completely moulded, Marc strikes, and everything goes smoothly. The subsoul has the victims carry out all the actions Marc imposes on them.

. When he wants to manipulate people, the subsouls (which are under a pattern) control his way of dealing with it: at the outset, the flattery he has to use, the person he has to pretend to be, the things he has to promise, the important people he knows, etc. The subsoul knows the subconscious mind and the other person’s situation and can therefore determine the best attitude towards this specific victim, so that Marc intuitively applies the right strategy, tailored to the victim. In a further phase the subsouls guide him in the strategy he should apply, for example, exerting pressure on the victim, etc.

. Thinking up masterly tricks to fool people. He always thinks of new things to fool people, he contents himself with his own inventiveness, he feels particularly good about that.

. He must swindle, he is unable to stop swindling, he must do it, he gets fidgety when he can’t con for a while. He must be able to do it at a regular pace, if not he goes mad with nerves. He can only calm down when he can con.

. You must play people a nasty trick, only then you can feel good.

. Experiencing an intense happiness when he can con someone. Experiencing an intense pleasure when working on his prey. An intense feeling of pleasure when he feels he has power over his prey and he can move it in any direction he wants.

. He sees through situations extremely fast, he immediately has an insight into the ins and outs of the matter and how he has to proceed in order to accomplish his goal.

. He thinks up a strategy to take his victims in, he makes up structured, step-by-step plans.

. He displays an attitude of friendship and of trust towards people, but meanwhile he has the last step in mind: laying his hands on their money (or whatever his goal is).

. You go through life swindling, there is no other life. You wind up in jail and then you are released once again. And then you go through life swindling. You wind up in jail …

. You must always steal and cheat, there is no other way.

. You are locked up, but you are released again. You are always released, no matter how many crimes you have committed. Time and time again, you are released, and then you can start over again. You recommence time and again, you can’t get enough of it. You are released time and time again and the good times you’ve had are a welcome bonus.

. You have to proceed cunningly; first, you have to examine everything very carefully. You first have to ferret out how it all fits together. You remember every detail, you store everything in your memory. You are patient, you prepare everything carefully to the smallest details and when the time is ripe, you strike and you leave your victims to fend for themselves and they are unable to do anything. You always get off scot-free, nothing happens to you.

. ‘You can always succeed (when swindling), nothing happens to you, the others are powerless’. This pattern is connected to a subsoul placing itself in people’s subconscious mind causing the others to be naive, not to have the remotest suspicion, and to be helpless after the facts.

. He wants to have control over people, he wants power. He wants to know and have the feeling that he has power over everyone, that no one escapes him. Consequently he’ll also con people for fun, since he gets a kick every time he ascertains how much power he has over others and how much he can make them do, and how he goes scot-free and he can recommence over and over again. He is addicted to conning, he gets a kick out of it and he wants to feel that kick as often as possible. He meticulously keeps all written documents (reports, press articles) about himself and cherishes them as trophies of his successful swindles. The more he gets into the papers, the more his swindle gets out, the prouder he feels about everything he’s done and about the power he has over others and the more people talk about it, the more powerful and godlike he feels.

. He is unable to keep money, it has to go. Once there is money, it must be spent.

Patterns for lying

. You must lie.

. He can’t be honest, he must always lie, he must tell something that is not true.

. He must twist the truth, he can’ t bear telling the truth. He gets an unpleasant feeling when telling the truth (as if he disappears, as if he no longer exists, as if he sinks away in something).

. The truth is unpleasant, the truth is false, the truth doesn’t help you. You find out quickly, the truth doesn’t help you. When you’re honest, you are punished. You must lie, you must tell untruths, the truth doesn’t help you.

. Lying is better than telling the truth, nothing can be achieved with the truth, you’ll find out soon. Lies are sacred, lies are your truth, lies are the ultimate truth. The truth can be achieved by lying, the lies become the truth. In this way you can escape reality, in this way you can create your own world, a world of fantasy becomes reality. A world of beautiful women, a world of hundreds of people lying at your feet, a world in which you are adored, a world where others are your slaves, puppets on the strings that you pull, they fulfil all your desires.

. To love lying, to see it as a game, to love taking people in, to love it when people believe what he says since that gives him a feeling of power.

. To get a buzz from lying, it turns him on, it makes him feel euphoric: as if he can deal with anything, as if he can bend anything and anyone to his will.

. You tell the most spectacular stories to make an impression. Like this you will be admired, like this you’ll impress people, like this you’ll get people in your power.

Patterns for a craving for attention

. ‘You have to get attention, you have to be the centre of everyone’s attention’. When this happens, Marc becomes euphoric, he becomes enthusiastic, he becomes very self-confident, he doesn’t stutter (he does in other situations). When this doesn’t happen, he feels like he’s getting mad with misery, he feels unbearably bad, he has the feeling he doesn’t exist anymore, he feels destroyed. This is an unbearable feeling, the only thing that can help him escape it, is getting attention. Therefore he’ll do ANYTHING to get attention, like for example, pretending to be the attorney-general, or harassing people (stalking), or destroying someone else’s things, or swindling (since he gets then attention from the press), etc.

. The world MUST revolve around you, you MUST be the centre of attention, you HAVE to be in the spotlight.

. ‘When you don’t get attention, you are lost. Then you don’t exist anymore, then you are forgotten by others. When you don’t get attention, no one will bother about you’. There is an unbearable feeling of misery together with this, therefore he MUST receive attention to escape this awful feeling. Hence he plays all kinds of pranks in order to get attention, he behaves childishly to get attention, he speaks in a childlike way and makes childlike movements to get attention.

. ‘Others can’t think of anything else besides you. Others must only be preoccupied with you. Others can’t have any other interests and occupations besides you’. When this is not the case, Marc will be annoying towards other people or will bother them in order to get the attention of others on himself.

. He always has to confirm himself and to emphasize what he achieved in order to get the sympathy and the regard of others.

. He is unable to be alone, he must have people around.

. He is always lonely. That’s why he wants to draw the attention: to get out of the loneliness.

Patterns for the absence of standards and values

. You live day by day. You don’t think about anything, you don’t make any plans, you’ll see where you end up.

. Nothing matters, the others don’t matter, laws don’t matter. Only you and what you want matters, only how you want to live matters, only your standards matter (that is: living it up and seeing where he ends up in time, not wanting to work and living in great style with other people’s money).

. Do with others what you want, they are only useless objects that you throw away after you’ve used them anyway. You don’t have to assume responsibility towards anyone, they aren’t worth that much. They are merely useless people you can use at will.

. You don’t have to take any responsibility. Back out of any obligation, don’t live according to the rules of society. They can only deprive you of your freedom. Don’t toe the line like those other fools. Show that you are different and that you don’t get trapped in the rules. Show that you are above that and that you do anything you want.

. Being unable to bear the rules and laws. Feeling as if he no longer exists when he has to submit to rules and laws.

. A compulsion to do things differently than what is stipulated by the laws.

. The rules are unimportant, they only make your life a misery. Only you are important, you are central, your happiness is at the centre. Rules only deprive you of your happiness. Break the rules, poke fun at the rules, show the others that you trample on the laws. Show the others that the rules don’t imprison you, show the others how important you are by ignoring all the rules.

. You didn’t do it, you don’t have anything to do with it. You outright deny any contribution, you deny any responsibility. It’s not your fault, it’s their own fault.

. You don’t show any consideration for anyone, you are a law unto yourself. You only do what you feel like yourself, you don’t yield to anyone.

. He must walk over other people, he must make other people look like fools, he must provoke others, he must do it different from what is asked.

. You must get it immediately. You can’t wait, it must happen right away.

Patterns for lack of empathy, for egocentrism, egoism

. He wants to feel love for people and to be good, but something else is stronger and compels him to this behaviour.

. Others must suffer.

. Others do not have any value.

. You don’t feel love for people, you don’t love people. You hate them for what they do unto you, you want to punish them.

. You can’t feel sympathy and compassion for others.

. You can’t feel what others feel.

. You don’t understand what others feel.

. You don’t feel anything, you don’t perceive anything. You don’t realize that others suffer, you are indifferent to the suffering of others.

. Take care of yourself, take good care of yourself, always think of your own benefit. Get someone to do your dirty work, use others to reach your goal. The others are there for you. You’re a god and they are the pawns you use in order to attain your purposes.

. He can’t think of anything but his own benefit. He can’t imagine nor understand someone could do something for someone else that is not to their own advantage. That is totally alien to him. He can only do something for himself, he can only act out of self-interest. He can only see his own advantage, he doesn’t know anything else.

. Other people leave you cold, the others are not important. You are important, you are the only one that counts.

. From dawn till dark he’s engaged in his own projects and he never gives other people a moment’s thought.

. The values of society aren’t your values, you don’t take the slightest notice of the values of society. The values of society only make things difficult for you. You don’t want to live like that, you’re not cut out for that. You’re a god and you also want to live that way. You only want to do what you enjoy, which is: having fun, not working, using others for the buzz it gives you and the sense of power it gives you. You are above the law, you do anything you want anyway and no one can touch you. That’s where the subsouls come into action once more and make sure he always gets off free, that he can get everyone to do his dirty work.

. You can use everybody, that’s your right.

. He can’t look at people in any other way than as objects he wants to use.

. ‘You must use people’. He clings to someone until they are completely squeezed out and they can’t be used for anything else anymore. Then he drops them and goes and clings to someone else.

. You don’t know what other people think, you don’t know what the world of other people is like. You don’t want to know this either, your life is the only thing that matters, you are the only one who counts.

. You’re in yourself, you are only in yourself, you don’t feel anything besides yourself, you are only yourself, there’s nothing else.

. Everything is meant for you, everything belongs to you, you have to take everything from others. When you realize that someone else has something, then you must have it and if you can’t, then you have to destroy the other person’s possession.

. Being absolutely unable to bear that someone else has something that he hasn’t, and that he would want to have too. From then onwards he aims to take this away from the other or to destroy this so that the other loses it too and the other doesn’t possess this either anymore as a result of which the other person certainly doesn’t have anything he doesn’t possess as well. Wanting to destroy something someone else has when he can’t have it himself.

. He is unable to allow others to be happy, he has to break this happiness in some or other way.

. You are special, you are extraordinary, you are very great

Patterns for an urge to be important

. You must be important, that is your primary goal. Being important is very important, it’s the most important thing in life. An urge to be important is combined with this.

. Doing everything to gain importance, for example: posing as an important person. When you’re important, you’re a god. When you’re important, you’ll be honoured. The feeling of compulsion to be honoured is present in this pattern as well.

. The feeling that no one is on a par with him, everyone is below him. Not being able to tolerate that someone would be on a level with him. The others have to be below him. He’ll abuse others and manipulate them in order to prove this to himself and the others. When he succeeds, he’s proved he’s better and he can set his mind at ease once again.

. You are the centre, no one is more important than you, no one may be more important than you. People who are more important than you have to be forced to your will, have to be used, have to be destroyed if necessary.

. An urge for power, an urge for power over others.

. The feeling of being a god and wanting to be admired by everyone. That’s why he tosses off the most spectacular stories.

. When you live in great style, then you’re important. When you make the money fly, everyone will see how rich you are and then you’re important.

. Feeling very small and unimportant. This is such an unbearable feeling he can only overcome by imagining to be a highly placed person.

. Being very small and afraid inside, there’s an intense sadness inside. That can only be overcome by imagining a dream world of greatness.

Patterns for infantile and theatrical behaviour

. Present yourself as a harmless fool. Act foolishly, act hysterically, be a clumsy oaf, be a child. This way no one will suspect who you are, this way you’re safe. This way, they won’t know you and you can strike at the right time.

. You pretend to be different than you actually are, they don’t see who you are. That’s important, they mustn’t see who you are. Act, hide behind a screen, then you’re safe. Then they won’t know your true intentions and you have free play, then you can strike unexpectedly.

. You can’t be yourself, you behave like a madman, like a silly child. Then they won’t know who you are and they won’t see through your intentions.

. Show yourself in a different way than you are, hide yourself, always pretend to be someone else.

. Always act, always put on an act, always pretend to be someone else, turn yourself into a different person. Like this no one will know who you are, like this you’ll be forever hidden, this way you can strike unexpectedly.

Patterns for spending his life in hospitals and in prisons

. You’re always locked up, you may be free for a while, and then you are locked up again.

. You spend your life in institutions and prisons, you’re free every so often.

. You mustn’t know freedom, you’re locked up.

. You can’t adapt to society, you steal and you cheat, you are a danger to society. They catch you and they lock you up, but you are released again. And then they catch you and they lock you up and you are set free again. And then they catch you …

. You’ll steal till the end of your life, you are imprisoned till the end of your life. You’ll escape but they lock you up again, you are never released.

Patterns for not finding love

. A life without love (neither receiving love nor giving love).

. There is no love.

. Your parents don’t love you, you are unwanted. You are fidgety, you demand a lot of attention. They want to be rid of you, they lock you up.

.The other children are favoured, you are considered less important, they want to be rid of you.

.You are an insufferable child, you drive your parents mad; they lock you up.

.You can’t find love.

.You take advantage of others, they don’t want you anymore.

. You always have to affirm yourself against others, you always have to prove yourself. You always demand attention, you yearn for attention, you yearn for the approval of others. You are annoying to others, the others avoid you.

. You stand alone in life, there are no friends, everyone leaves you to your own devices.

. ‘You are not appreciated’. This activates another pattern that makes him want to compensate this by playing all kinds of pranks in order to prove himself against others, with the intention of being appreciated.

. ‘They push you away, they don’t want you’. This activates a pattern that makes him want to draw attention in every possible way.

. There are no family ties, there are no friends.

. You never get a bond with someone, every contact remains superficial.

. You live superficially, you don’t fit in society, you don’t belong there, there is no room for you in society.

. You are alone.

. You have no one.

. No one loves you.

. You are cast out.

. No one helps, you have to fend for yourself.

. You are lonely and alone, you live in great style and you show off what you have, but you feel empty and lonely inside.

. You are desperately looking for love, but you don’t find it, love doesn’t cross your path.

. Substitute for love: sex.

. You are unable to feel love for someone else. You don’t love people, you don’t love anyone. No one loves you.

. You don’t have feelings for others, you don’t feel anything for others. You only see how you can use other people.

. You can’t understand what love is, you don’t know what love is, you can never know it.

Patterns for a very high self-confidence

. You know you succeed, you know you can do it, you know you don’t fail. There’s a euphoric feeling of being able to deal with anything in this pattern, of having everything under control, of being master of everything, a euphoric feeling of being god.

. You can’t fail, you always succeed.

. You succeed in everything you do.

. You always feel good, you always feel good in your skin. You are never sad, you always get over everything, you can always deal with everything, it always turns out all right. There’s also a subsoul that somehow or other intervenes so that things turn out all right (a programmed subsoul).

. You cannot fail, go ahead, you can’t fail. Together with this there is a subsoul that steers things in the right direction (a programmed subsoul).

. A subsoul constantly leads him and tells him what to do in order to achieve his goal. He intuitively gets the right hunches this way.

. When he wants to get information via someone, then a subsoul places itself with this other person and forces this person to cooperate. This way Marc always gets the right information. The person (reluctantly or otherwise), releases the (secret) information.

Patterns for low intelligence

. You are stupid (suppressing energies of intelligence).

. Your thinking stands still, you don’t reason, you don’t think, you only take an overview (= perceive).

. A chemical process in the brains for processing data during reasoning is absent. Data isn’t stored and consequently can’t be used in processes of reasoning in which various data are compared, so that no processes of reasoning can occur. This pattern can also play a part in the fact that Marc doesn’t learn from experience.

. ‘Thinking stops’. This activates a pattern that causes access to data in the brain required for reasoning to be blocked. The chemicals that want to access a certain address in the brain in order to retrieve data by binding themselves to this data are bounced off at this address (a barrier arises between the chemicals and the data, the process of retrieval of data stops).

. ‘You are dead, you don’t live, you are like an animal, you overlook, you see, you perceive, you don’t think, you don’t learn’. This pattern activates a second pattern regarding the functioning of the brain that dictates that no brain processes for reasoning occur. The brain processes stop, Marc can only perceive and these data are stored normally so that Marc can remember things. So Marc can only perceive and remember and has difficulty reasoning.

. ‘You can’t think’. This pattern causes Marc to be unable to think at the moment he wants to think. The thinking in his head stops, there is no thinking, he can only perceive. There is also a veil of false images that comes before his eyes, so that Marc perceives things that are wrong, and consequently makes wrong conclusions (and this is perhaps why he insists so firmly on being right, since he has perceived things other than reality).

. When Marc wants to reason, when he tries to think or to understand, wrong information enters his mind so that his reasoning is distorted.

. ‘Slow thinking’. This activates a pattern that causes the brain processes to slow down.

. ‘You are not allowed to think, you are an animal, you can only perceive’. This prevents lots of brain processes for intellectual activities from happening, they simply don’t exist.

Patterns for poor self-insight

. You don’t know who you are.

. You don’t see yourself.

. You don’t notice the way you are, you think you’re a good person.

. You’re the best, you do everything right, you don’t make mistakes. You’re perfect, you’ve got a compassionate, good character, you sympathize with others.

. He is unable to perceive himself regarding the things he feels, thinks and does; he always thinks he’s a good person, that he cares about others, that he assesses things correctly, that he can’t fail.

B. Energies

Marc has received therapy from me for a while. I asked him for his qualities. Below you’ll find a list of the qualities he saw in himself as well as a description of the energies and subsouls responsible for these qualities.

I’m very strong verbally

. There’s an energy of self-confidence with regard to language, a feeling of certainty and peace concerning language

. A subsoul knows the vocabulary, has the talent to express himself in ornate language, passes on to Marc what has to be said (Marc intuitively uses the right phrasing because of this subsoul).

I’ve got a photographic memory

. There’s an energy that feeds the brain when storing and retrieving data.

. A subsoul takes in every impression, both visual and auditory, and can always reproduce the information.

I understand everything quickly

. There’s an energy that feeds the brain.

. There’s a subsoul that knows things, that has an insight in things.

. There’s a subsoul that gives Marc flashes of intuition, so that he has an intuitive idea of how things fit together.

There are things for which Marc does have a talent and that he does understand well in spite of the fact that Marc has low results in IQ tests. For example, Marc has a talent for legislation and therefore he would like to become a lawyer. He knows the law books by heart. Marc also writes flawlessly.

Some more positive qualities as perceived by Marc are listed below. However, these qualities are the result of patterns and not of energies.

I have the talent to convince anyone

This is certainly something that benefits Marc. However, this characteristic is not the result of energies, but of a pattern, since this trait harms others. When Marc wants to convince someone, then one of his subsouls puts itself with this other person (the subsoul actually goes and hangs out with the other person) and compels this person to do what Marc wants. This subsoul doesn’t do this out of free will, but due to a pattern that surrounds it.

A second subsoul, which is also under the influence of a pattern around it, gives its victim the feeling that he can trust Marc and that what Marc is telling, is the truth.

The subsouls, which are now under influence of the pattern, stand for truth and impact on others, but on a fair basis (i.e. when these subsouls were free and not under a pattern).

Furthermore a pattern of having power over people is active, as a result of which people believe him and he can deceive people into believing anything he wants.

This pattern suppresses energies of having impact on people.

. ‘I do anything for someone who likes me very much’. He’ll do his utmost not to lose someone on the basis of a pattern.

. ‘I treat everyone I meet’. This happens due to a pattern that makes him want to look important in the view of others.

. ‘I support certain projects financially’. There is a pattern that makes him want to do something for someone else when it’s to his own advantage, when he can somehow or other gain something from it.

. ‘I can solve issues that others can’t solve’. This is due to subsouls that can open doors by influencing people as a result of patterns that surround them. There is also the pattern: ‘people bow to you’.

. ‘I spoil women with luxury’. There’s a pattern for wanting to have power over women by making them financially dependent on him. There’s also a second pattern for not wanting to lose them, for wanting to keep up love by providing luxury.

. ‘I help people, also financially, I help people in need, I condemn the fate of ill detainees’. There’s a pattern that states he’ll help others when he thinks he’ll get attention by helping others or by drawing attention to someone else’s problem.

20.2     Example of patterns of autism

Autism is claimed to be the result of deviations in the brain. NPL believes that autism results from patterns. Each character trait that is an autistic characteristic, is the result of a different pattern. Autism is the result of hundreds or thousands of different patterns.

There are lots of patterns in the subconscious mind that cause deviations in the brain structure and the functioning of the brain in mentally handicapped with autism. Patterns that cause anomalies in the brain or in the functioning of the brain are absent in autistic persons with normal intelligence. The aberrant behaviour is caused only by patterns in the subconscious mind. Every characteristic typical of autism can therefore be remedied with NPL. The behaviour characteristics of mentally disabled autistic persons also result from patterns and they can therefore all be corrected.

The intellectual abilities may perhaps be improved too as soon as the patterns that cause the aberrant brain structure and brain functioning will have been removed. However, the bases of such patterns are located in very deep layers of the subconscious mind, as a result of which a possible improvement in the intellectual field can only be achieved in the long term. Perhaps an improvement can’t be achieved at all, because the brain may possibly not recover anymore, not even after the patterns have been removed.

The most persistent problem in the treatment of autism is the issue of being turned in on oneself and consequently an abnormal contact with others (lack of reciprocity). Other patterns usually disappear more quickly. Some patterns of compulsion tend to be more persistent than other patterns as well. Behaviour such as being strongly focused on oneself and some types of compulsion, is more difficult to correct than other patterns, also in people who are not autistic.

In the example of Tijs, given below, the contents of the patterns are sometimes stored in concept form (‘you’ll withdraw, you’re safe on your own’, ‘you may not adapt’) or in the form of a story, including images, feelings and ideas. In this case, the behavior is pictured in the form of a scene. The content of the scene is described in the following form: ‘he wants to withdraw, he is safe on his own’, ‘he may not adapt’.

Patterns can sometimes contradict one another. One pattern can be active in one situation and an opposite pattern in another situation.

Patterns (and energies) in an 11-year old, autistic boy

Tijs, an 11-year old autistic boy with a low-normal ability.

A. Patterns

Patterns for poor social contact

. You can’t detach from yourself
. There is no one but yourself, you are only yourself.
. You don’t love other people.
. You want to get away from the others.
. Cut yourself off, turn away (dictates what he must do when somebody speaks to him).
. Don’t listen (when somebody speaks to him).
. Don’t hear (when somebody speaks to him).
. You don’t have to listen.

. You do not hear, you do not feel (this pattern prevents him from noticing other people or from noticing they are talking to him).

. He is completely withdrawn into his own world and withdraws from the world and from other people. It is good and safe there. It is very enjoyable in that world, without contact with others. He doesn’t want to have anything to do with others, he doesn’t want to have any contact with them, he loves to be on his own. Being on his own is very enjoyable, without the bother and the nagging of other people, away from all those annoying people. He feels very happy and peaceful when he is cut off from the world and when he can withdraw cosily into his own small world.

. Contacts are perceived as unpleasant, wanting to avoid contact, wanting to be cut off from the rest.

. You don’t want to have anything to do with anybody.  Cut yourself off, withdraw into yourself. You feel so good and safe in yourself. This way everything is so good then, this way there is no danger.

. Feeling uncomfortable and afraid in contacts with people, not knowing what to do in contacts with people. Withdrawing into himself is the solution because then he feels safe.

. Fear of people.

. He will never approach someone, that thought doesn’t occur to him. He just stands there waiting. It doesn’t occur to him to make contact. Quite the opposite, he has a strong inclination to withdraw. He doesn’t like people seeking contact with him. He prefers to just stand there, then he feels best.

. Being very focused on oneself, being very focused on one’s own interests, being highly self-oriented. Showing little interest in other people, not being interested in anyone except oneself (= selfishness).

. ‘You cannot hear’ (what someone is saying). He sees people talking but he cannot understand what they are saying. It is as if there is a wall between himself and the other person, a wall that stops the words. He feels an enormous abyss between himself and the other person when somebody speaks to him. It makes him feel terribly lost and frightened. The solution is to cut himself off from the world and to withdraw into himself. That gives the other person the impression that he is not listening and the other person gets the feeling that he is unapproachable.

. Feeling that there is something he would like to say and that he would like to make contact, but not knowing what to say. He cannot think of anything to say. Feeling lost and wanting to withdraw into himself as a result.

. Fear of contacts with people, shame because he doesn’t know what to say. Feeling lost with people as a result and therefore avoiding people, especially when he doesn’t know them.

. ‘You don’t understand what other people say, it is all so unclear’. Fear of contact with people as a result, cutting himself off from people as a result. Making himself inaccessible to protect himself, going into a trance and no longer being accessible when people speak to him.

. You have to get attention, if not, you don’t exist.

. Feeling unable to make contact, and feeling very helpless as a result. The solution is displaying rough behaviour, for instance pushing someone, in order to make contact with someone anyhow, in order not to be completely cut off from the others.

. Feeling very lonely because he is unable to make contact and doing all kinds of silly things to draw attention as a result.  An obsession for attention arises out of fear of not getting attention and of not being noticed by others. Getting attention is the only way to escape being cut off from the rest. When he does silly things, he is punished, the others are angry and he gets attention, which makes him feel less alone. When somebody is angry, this person’s attention is focused on him and he feels less alone, he feels a contact with other people which is otherwise not there, he can escape the fact of being cut off from others. The silly things he does, like for example, crawling underneath the table, throwing other children’s things about, etc. are laid down in the pattern.
. There is no contact with others, you are cut off. You can’t express yourself, you can’t say what you want to say. You can’t understand what other people say, you can’t communicate.
. You can’t make contact, you don’t know how.

• There are no thoughts.
• You don’t find the right words.
• You can’t express yourself, you can’t say what you feel and think.
• He would like to express himself but the words do not cross his lips.
• You can’t hear words, you can’t understand language, it doesn’t register with you.
• There is no language, there are no words, you are not allowed to say anything, you can’t speak.
• There is no communication, there is distance. Everybody lives on one’s own, there is no mental connection with other people. The thread of contact is cut through.
• He goes into a sort of trance when somebody speaks to him. He shifts into a world where he can’t hear what is said, where he is withdrawn into himself. He can’t listen, he can’t pay attention when somebody speaks. He shifts into a state of absence from the world.

• You can only understand yourself. You can’t understand what someone else feels.
• You can’t understand what other people think.
• You can’t understand the world of other people.
• You can’t understand facial expressions. (This pattern makes him react in an unexpected manner, for instance it makes him smile when somebody is angry).
• You don’t feel any contact with other people. You are in your own world, you are tied to yourself.

• What other people say, is incomprehensible, it doesn’t register with you. You can’t reply.

• You can’t defend yourself, you don’t know how. This pattern also includes an image of standing and waiting forlornly.

• Feeling alone, feeling at a great distance from other people. Staying there, not being able to make contact.

• When he wants to ask something, he can’t do this. He is overwhelmed by fear. There’s a feeling of helplessness and of not knowing how to do this (asking for something) and he just stands there as if paralyzed.

• He is completely absorbed into his own world, he is deeply introverted. He is cut off from the world and from the others. He is not interested in the others. He is not interested in what happens to other people. He is not interested in what other people feel. The only thing he knows and feels is himself. He is tied to himself.

• He shifts into his own world and it doesn’t register with him what other people say. It doesn’t get through to him, he doesn’t hear it and he doesn’t understand it. Only his own thoughts and activities interest him. Apart from that, nothing concerns him anymore.

• He’s afraid of eyes, he can’t look people in the eye. He’s afraid of people, he feels ill at ease with people and therefore avoids eye contact. Eye contact makes him uncomfortable: it is as if they can see the truth in him when they make eye contact. He wants to hide.

• You are locked up (meaning: he’s withdrawn into himself).
• A large group is very confusing. He gets lost in the group, it is as if the group becomes one whole and he no longer exists. He doesn’t know how to behave anymore. He starts to rub over his head or his hair, he stands there as if paralyzed or he starts to crawl on the floor like an animal.

Patterns for a low frustration threshold

• You must have your way, it has to be like you want it to be. Otherwise, there is frustration and he starts to stamp his feet and hit and there is anger.

• He is in his own little world doing his own things and he is totally absorbed by this. He becomes one with it. It is the only thing that exists and the rest of the world doesn’t exist anymore to him. An interruption is totally unexpected and creates a strong feeling of imbalance and frustration.

• An image of a chosen path that he follows intensely, in which he gets absorbed. When he does something, he gets absorbed by that activity. Being torn away from it is unbearable. Hence a violent reaction of crying and dismay when something has to be interrupted.

• You are totally absorbed in your game, you become one with it. You become one with the game, you become the game. An interruption feels as if you are broken yourself, it is an attack on yourself. You cannot understand that, you cannot just tear yourself loose from it. There is also a feeling of terrible fury involved.

• You are interrupted; at this moment you have an overwhelming feeling of anger and powerlessness.
• Everything affects you, everything is frustrating.

• Every irregularity equals frustration. When something is called off, when something stops unexpectedly, you feel an enormous frustration. The feeling of frustration is also present in the pattern.

• You cannot bear it when something is stopped, something (an action) has to be continuous. An action mustn’t stop prematurely, an action must have a beginning and a normal end. An action that is stopped or interrupted, creates a terrible feeling of frustration. Only shouting and hitting and stamping your feet can relieve this unbearable, highly unpleasant feeling. This very unpleasant feeling gradually goes away by shouting, hitting and stamping your feet.

• Showing a feeling of frustration by speaking in a plaintive tone of voice or by protesting, an intense feeling of self-pity and of sadness.

• Things may only happen this way and not any other way. Tijs always has a certain expectation of how things will go and he doesn’t take into account any other possibility due to this pattern. In his mind there is only one way and this way is obvious. When something happens in a different way, it is so unexpected and unbearable that he feels a terrible frustration which he expresses by getting furious.

• You can’t get over something, this means: you can’t adapt. He feels terrible when something cannot happen the way he wants.

• Nothing may change, everything must stay the way it is. Nothing may change, it always must stay the same, otherwise there’s frustration.

• Not being able to cope with something that changes. A change in a certain line or chosen path is incomprehensible and very traumatic and frustrating. It is obvious that everything stays the way it is, it is unnatural for something to change.  The sentence ‘why does it have to be like THAT?’ (which is literally what he says when something has to be done different from what he has in mind) is also present in this pattern.

• You feel terrible when something goes wrong, you feel terribly frustrated.

Patterns for disruptive behaviour in class

• There’s a pattern that contains the following images: an ostrich running around agitatedly and making noises, a snake crawling over the ground and hissing, an owl flapping its wings and making noises, a frolicking hare, an animal stealing food from another animal’s hole and fighting when the other animal wants to get the food back, a crowing cock, etc. When this pattern is active, Tijs adopts the personality of one of the afore-mentioned animals and he displays a behaviour that looks or sounds like that of these animals.

• A compulsion to walk around.
• A compulsion to get attention.
• A compulsion to get noticed.
• A compulsion to be the centre of attention.

• A compulsion to tease others and images of how the teasing takes place, in what way he has to bully other children, for instance by pushing, hitting, kicking them, putting something in somebody’s hair, etc.

• He has to do something to draw the teacher’s attention in a situation where his/her attention is not focused on him. He teases children because then he is chided and he attracts the teacher’s attention.

• It feels as if he disappears into nothingness in a situation where he has to sit still in a group and listen to someone standing in front of the classroom. It is as if he no longer exists. It makes him feel uncomfortable, he is overwhelmed by a ‘fear of disappearing’ (ceasing to exist). He wants to escape that, he doesn’t want to feel that. The only way to escape this is by making sure he constantly distances himself from the group by displaying behaviour different from sitting still in the group and listening to someone standing in front of the classroom. The various types of behaviour such as walking around, standing on top of his desk, pulling someone’s hair, shouting, hitting with his ruler or throwing things about, etc. are programmed in the pattern.

• He needs to move around. He can’t and mustn’t sit still. He must be in action.

• When something changes (a transition to a different activity), this is frustrating and surprising to him because an action that has started, has to continue in his way of thinking. It is as if the transition has never happened before, even though he did experience it before. He wants to continue the action. Therefore he’ll display difficult behaviour and he’ll protest in order to have his way.

• You can’t understand the world around you. You don’t know how, you are in your own little world and you do what comes into your mind (e.g. standing on top of the desk, pushing another child, hitting a child with a ruler, standing up and walking around …).

Patterns for sticking to routines and always wanting to do something in the same way

. He doesn’t know what to do with something new at all. He can’t appeal to what he already knows from the past because he’s completely mentally cut off from that. There is no association with information in the brain related to situations in the past. Everything seems to be entirely new. He can’t make use of things he’s already learnt to take care of this situation because he can’t access these things in the brain. He stands there forlornly and he doesn’t know what to do as a result.

. The pattern of the way in which something has to happen, is burnt into his brain the first time it takes place, and afterwards it can never change or be different again. Therefore, a game that has been played in a certain way can never change again. He can’t build up an insight into a game either because every new step is something new and he can’t make use of what he already knows when dealing with something new because no information emerges from the brain, consequently he can’t build up anything.

. It must always continue to happen the same way it happened the first time, it’s very frustrating to abandon this because that feels unnatural to Tijs. The way in which it happened the first time is fixed in his head. Any adjustment to or variation on the way he has something in mind, feels unnatural to him.

Patterns for ‘everything has to go as he has in mind’, he’s on his own track

. You mustn’t adapt, you must do it the way you want to do it. You think it THIS way and that’s the way it must happen. It mustn’t happen in another way. There is no other way. It has to be like THIS.

. Don’t listen to the others. They don’t know, you do. Don’t deviate from that, don’t deviate from what you think. What you feel is right.
. He can only see something from his own point of view. He can’t understand any other point of view. He doesn’t realize other points of view are possible either.

. He can’t detach from something he has in mind. When he thinks in a certain way, then he continues to hold on to that and no single other contribution from outside will change that.
. You have to hold on to what you think, you have to hold on to what you feel. You have to hold on to how you see it. It’s right like this.

. It can’t happen any other way. It can only happen like THIS.

Patterns for being very easily distracted, for being unable to concentrate.

. You’re always lost in thought, you’re always occupied with something, you can’t detach from that. What happens beyond you, doesn’t interest you. You don’t want to listen to others, you don’t want to do what others want. The things you’re occupied with, are your entire world. That’s everything that interests you, that’s what you think about. You are not interested in anything else.

. You don’t have to listen to what others say, that’s not important (he totally withdraws into himself when somebody tells a story).

. You think of something else, you must think of something else. A compulsion to think of something else (something different from the subject he should be thinking of). A compulsion to do something different (something different than what he should be doing).

. It doesn’t interest you at all. You are indifferent to all of it, it’s not important.

. You can’t focus. You can’t keep your thoughts focused on something. Your attention shifts to something else.

. You don’t listen.

. The other thing is more interesting.

. A compulsion to think all the time. He can’t keep his mind on something.

. You can’t listen, you have to think of something else.
. You can’t concentrate. You’re always distracted. You can’t keep your mind to it.

. You can’t listen, you’re distracted, you must do something else. Images of walking around, bullying others, raising hell are also present in this pattern.

. There’s a deviation in the composition of brain fluid as a result of which there is no normal conduction in the brain and therefore he can’t focus on something.

Patterns for being very detail-oriented and not being able to let go of a detail.

. He doesn’t see the whole picture. He picks out one small part, he can only work with one part of the whole and then he keeps holding on to that. It’s difficult to let go of that detail. If he does manage to let go of it at all, he’ll concentrate on a next detail again. He can only process something step by step and he keeps holding on to every step.

. He can’t imagine a whole. He can only concentrate on a small constituent of the whole of what he is occupied with at that instance. For example, when he’s colouring in a drawing, then he doesn’t see the whole drawing, but only the small part he’s colouring in.

. When he’s confronted with something, he automatically picks out one part of it and then his attention is glued to this. He can’t perceive what is present around this.

. He can’t remember the order when clearing away toys. He can’t arrange the whole in his mind. He can only view every piece separately. He can’t link them together in a sequence.

Patterns for not wanting to share with others

. He can’t let go of something. He’s impressed in his mind that something belongs to him and this can only continue this way. It is not possible to change.

. As soon as he gets something, it belongs to him. He can’t consider any other option.

. He can’t understand someone else’s feelings at all. He can only understand his own feelings, and his feelings are something that belongs to him. It is not possible for him to put himself in someone else’s shoes at all and to realize that other people like to have something too. There is a total lack of empathy. He only knows his own feelings and thoughts and he’s tied to them.  There is only this single reality: what he wants himself. There exists no other reality to him.

Patterns for dominance against his brother

. He wants to impose his will on others. He can’t accept the fact that something wouldn’t go the way he wants it to go. Therefore the other must do what he wants, there is no other way. When this isn’t possible (with other children than his brother), he’ll cut himself off from others.

. He can’t detach from his own way of thinking. It’s fixed in his mind how something should go. He notices that others want to handle things differently, but he can’t take that. Therefore someone else has to do things the way he wants it. When the other doesn’t do this, he’ll beat them in order to force them to obey.

Patterns for imitating the behaviour of others

. Feeling very insecure. Not knowing how something has to be done. Feeling alone, not feeling surrounded by support. And then he sees an example of how someone is doing something, and then he feels support. When he mimics this behaviour, he doesn’t feel alone anymore, he’s blended into the other person.

. You must do what the others do. Then you’re right.

. Someone else knows how it has to be done. Follow the other, then you can’t fail.

Patterns for perfectionism

. He has in mind how something must happen, down to the smallest detail. For example: all the letters have to be written nicely in a row. It can only be carried out this way, there can’t be any deviation.

. He can’t allow himself to make mistakes. This is incredibly frustrating because then it differs from what he had in mind, from the idea he had formed in his mind, from how it should have happened.

Patterns for only being able to eat something when it is a whole.

. Nothing may break, nothing may break off, everything has to be whole. There is a strong compulsion it has to be like this. When this isn’t possible, a pattern with feelings of intense frustration is activated.

Patterns for arranging items of food next to one another

. Various things always have to lie next to one another. Nothing may lie on top of or under something else. It can only be this way, this is the only way.

Patterns for a plaintive attitude

. A pattern that imposes this plaintive attitude is active all the time. The pattern contains his way of complaining and the words he says when he complains.
Patterns for making noises and pulling faces

. You must make noises. The kind of noises, the rhythm at which this happens and the compulsion to produce these noises are also present in the pattern.

. You’re numb, you are not present. Tijs shifts into this pattern as soon as his attention isn’t fixed on anything. This activates a second pattern: Tijs shifts to a condition of mental stupor, into a state of consciousness of automatism, and he starts to make noises and to pull faces without being aware of it. The kinds of noises and the kinds of faces are established in the pattern.

. A pattern has the contents: ‘waw, waw, waw, …’. When this pattern is activated, he constantly repeats this word.

. He shifts into a trance, he shifts into his own small world. He slips into a mental condition of numbness, into an inner world that is cut off from the outside world and then the automatism of making noises starts: grunting, shrieking, growling, like an animal that withdraws deeply into its hole and slips away into its inner world and makes these noises.

. When he hears a certain sound, a pattern can be activated as a result of which he constantly mimics or repeats that sound.

Patterns for walking about a lot and for running after other children

. A compulsion to move around, being unable to stand still. There has to be something to do. Not being able to take that there’s nothing to do. He must move about, he must run.

. A pattern contains an image of what he does in the playground: drawing on the ground with chalk or running after the other children.

Patterns for an aversion to clay, for not wanting to touch it

. New things are dangerous.

. You don’t know it, hold it at bay.

. Don’t engage in it, it can be dangerous.

Patterns for disobedience

. He resists with all his strength against what he has to do when there is an external order (= something he doesn’t choose himself). The sentence ‘but no, I won’t do that, I always have to do it!’ is literally present in the pattern (Tijs literally says this when he has to do something).

. You must do things you shouldn’t do. You have to do it differently than desired.

. You must get attention, you must be contrary.

. You mustn’t cooperate. You mustn’t oblige the others. You must be contrary.

. You mustn’t do it in the way others want it.

. When he’s set his mind to something, when an occupation interests him very much, then his attention is focused on this for 100%. There’s not 1% of attention free for the perception of other issues. He’s blended into the occupation. When someone then tells him something or asks him to do something, he doesn’t hear it (then this looks like disobedience).

Patterns for echolalia and echokinesis

. You must imitate sounds.

. You must repeat the actions of others.

. You must imitate it (sounds and actions).

Patterns for drawing with chalk for hours on end

. You must draw with chalk. What he draws, is present in the pattern in the form of an image. Once he starts to draw, he shifts to an automatism of drawing with chalk for hours on end. He’s completely absorbed in it and he is mentally dissociated from the world. He’s become a machine that draws by order of the pattern.

Patterns for drawing numbers and arrows

. He goes into a trance state, into an automatism.  He isn’t focused on what happens around him, and he just keeps on drawing. What he draws is present in the pattern.

Patterns for an interest in elevators

. What goes up and down is tremendously fascinating. Tijs is drawn to it, is obsessed to be with it.

Patterns for fluttering like a bird

. A pattern contains this image: standing and spreading the arms wide and making upward and downward movements. This pattern is activated when he wants to attract attention because another pattern is active: ‘you no longer get attention’. However, you must get attention. If not, you don’t exist. Make sure to attract attention. This way, you won’t be forgotten, like this, you won’t perish.

Patterns for enjoying food intensely and for totally being engrossed in the process of eating.

. When he eats, he totally withdraws from reality. All contact with the world is cut off. He’s intensely concentrated on the food. There exists yet only one thing, namely the food. He’s blended into it.

Patterns for a problem with time.

. A pattern contains an image of someone who is engaged in an activity and who is totally engrossed in it. Someone who is totally mentally cut off from the outside world, and who doesn’t hear or see what is happening around him. There is only the activity, there is a blending into the activity. He has become aware of the hour at which something has to happen on a subconscious level.  Tijs detaches from the merge with the activity very briefly before it’s time for something else. He realizes he has to be on time for something and he gets overwhelmed by an intense feeling of panic. He also feels this is the first time this is happening. The hour at which something has to be ready rises before him in the form of the threatening image of a giant block, like something evil that will seize him if he’s not on time. And he screams: ‘always that time, that time is wrong, that time runs too quickly, I don’t want that’ in an attempt to keep that image at bay. This is accompanied by fierce stamping, rage, etc. in order to keep the image at bay.

Patterns for not being able to lose in a card game and for wanting to be the first in school or in a queue.

. You may not lose at anything. You must always be the first, you must always stand in front. No one may pass you by, no one may outdo you.

. You must always outdo the others, you must be there first, you must arrive first.

. You must be the best.

. You must be first.

. You must win. There’s also a strong feeling of compulsion in this pattern.

Patterns for going and lying under the boards in the classroom

. You must withdraw when there are a lot of people. Then you have to find a small place to yourself alone, where no one can see you. Make sure there’s a separation between yourself and the rest.

Patterns for waking up screaming at night

. A pattern with the following contents is activated at night: Tijs goes into a hole, he’s drawn downwards through a deep tunnel into a vortex at breakneck speed and there are instruments of torture and wild animals awaiting him down. He’s terrified and this fear makes him wake up. This bizarre situation goes on for a while due to the other patterns (that prevent him from detaching from something) as a result of which he doesn’t notice that his mother comes into the room and that there is no danger. He goes to stand on the bed when the fear has diminished somewhat and he feels released from the hole and thinks he’s outside the hole. (What people dream is the result of patterns and not of information in the brain).

Patterns for being bad at sports

. There is a pattern that suppresses the energies responsible for control over the body, as a result of which Tijs is out of touch with his own body and he has little control over his body.

B. Energies

Sense of music

. There is an energy responsible for very fine aural perception, for hearing very fine tones. This energy causes him to be extremely sensitive to the smallest difference in tone. This energy gives an impulse to the brain so that refined sensory neurons are created to improve aural perception.
. There is an energy of serenity, of absolute peace and calm, a feeling of happiness when he perceives certain sound waves.
. There is the energy of ‘music’, the whole of tones, the creation of tones, tones that blend into a harmonious whole.
. There is a subsoul that can create music, that is and has the quality of ‘music’, that can create a harmonious combination of tones.

Sense of rhythm and dance

. There is an energy that leads the body of Tijs as he dances, that creates flowing movements that are in harmony with the music.
. There is an energy that catches the tones of the music and makes the body move in harmony with it.
. A subsoul has control over the body and makes the body move in harmony with the tones of the music.
. A subsoul has a repertoire of dances and leads Tijs as he dances.

A special interest for numbers and an aptitude for arithmetic

. There is an energy that holds intelligence for that type of knowledge.
. An energy contains the whole spectrum of arithmetical calculations and their results. Tijs only needs to draw on the supplies. He doesn’t even have to reason for it. The knowledge comes to him, he just knows the answer.
. There is a subsoul that supports the brain when doing arithmetical calculations. It adds an energy to the brain, as a result of which the brain tissue is fed and chemical processes in the brain go faster.
. A subsoul has knowledge and control over the chemical operations in the brain and controls chemical processes.
. There is a subsoul that does sums and calculations, that has mathematical knowledge. The answer comes to Tijs, he just knows the answer, he doesn’t need to reason.

20.3     Examples of energies

20.3.1 Patrick: dexterity, patience, perseverance, honest and correct behaviour, being able to cope with things on his own, standing strong in difficult situations, varied interests, an aptitude for mathematics and logical thinking, an interest in personality development, being able to spend money easily.

I’m very dexterous, I’m good at odd jobs, I’m very good at putting something together

. There is an energy that makes him see the whole of something before it is finished. He knows how something is constructed, thanks to this energy, even without having learned anything about it. A feeling for proportions and forms. Control over things, control over various things at once. Figuring out how it has to be done, being guided towards it, so to speak. Intuitively carrying out something correctly, knowing how something has to be done.

. There are various subsouls that have the knowledge of how billions of objects are constructed. They have the knowledge of materials in the world and of technical insight, of how things have to be put together into a working whole. They direct and lead Patrick when he puts something together or when he repairs something. They have knowledge of the object from before it is finished and how each part will fit into the other, and they automatically make him carry out the right actions.

I’m very patient in the work I do

. There is an energy to be intensely focused on something. All concentration is combined in order to accomplish a task. Perseverance.

. There is a subsoul for intense concentration, to persevere until something is finished in detail. Going through something step by step and with each step there’s the same unremitting effort and energy until the final result, a sustained strength.

I have a strong perseverance

. There is an energy that holds an enormous strength.  Fastening one’s teeth in something, an enormous will to achieve the final goal. An enormous strength and an intention to fight every obstacle and to overcome all obstacles thanks to this energy, a passion to get there, in spite of whatever barrier.

I’m correct and honest

. There’s an energy of balance, of insight into the interrelations among people. Everybody is equal. Hence everyone has to be treated equally. I myself am equal to every other person. Therefore I treat someone else like I want to be treated myself.

. There is a subsoul that guides him to behave correctly.

I can cope with life on my own

. There’s an energy of strength, to be strong, to be able to be alone.

I keep myself upright, in spite of the difficult situation

. There’s an energy of strength, commitment to keep at it.

. The subsouls are in fact the person himself, and every one of them represents another quality. The talent of a subsoul is usually perceived as one’s own talent. In this case I sense a subsoul that somehow appears to consider itself as someone else that supports and leads Patrick, that puts courage into him, that helps him, pushes him into the right direction, that brings about things for him, so that he might get the feeling that there is something with him that supports him.

I have a varied interest

. There is an energy of versatility, of wanting to taste everything. Being able to detach from one subject or given course and to choose something different, being able to take another direction. Being able to assume various points of view, being able to adapt to something new. Experiencing something different from the well-known pattern as enjoyable, longing for something else and for new experiences.

. There is a subsoul of curiosity, for wanting to explore new worlds, for wanting to learn.

I’m intelligent, I have a feeling for mathematics and logical thinking

. There is an energy of insight, knowledge. Being able to see logical structures, being able to see a coherence, a sequence. Being able to see separate parts and how they fit together in the whole picture. Being able to see the whole picture, being able to relocate elements of an entirety into another logical entirety, unity.  Being able to make combinations of elements in order to come to lots of entireties. A feeling of how things fit together and are interconnected and interact.

. There is also an energy that feeds the brain.

. A subsoul has control over the brain, brings about a quick processing in the brain, it adds an energy to the brain for optimal functioning.

. There is a subsoul that thinks and that reasons logically. It has knowledge and it knows, it can find connections and see the right proportions.

I’m interested in personality development, in evolving, I want to get the absolute most out of myself.

. There is an energy that knows that we’re nothing on this planet, a knowledge that this isn’t our destiny and that there is something else. There is a knowledge that we got from something higher to a lower level, a knowledge that there’s much more inside of us than what we know here on this planet and that we want to return to the original high level.

. Various subsouls want him to be released (from the patterns) and want him to reach his full potential and guide him towards things that can help him to be freed.

I’m not attached to money, I can easily spend money for something useful and enjoyable.

. There is an energy that signifies that money that is used, helps on. Being able to spend money, not holding on to money. Money is a means and not a final goal. Money is not important.

20.3.2 Nancy: love for animals, good contacts with people, self-discipline, self-confidence, leadership abilities, general knowledge, writing talent, musical talent.

I love animals, I love nature

. There is an energy of love for everything alive, for nature, for flowers, for animals, of gratitude for the existence, of being grateful for every day, for the ability to enjoy minor things.

. A subsoul directs her to find and enjoy nice things. When she experiences an intense feeling of pleasure, it is the pleasure of this subsoul she feels.

I’m a good listener

. There is an energy to empathize with others, of intense attention for others, to be interested in others and to want to help, of interest in others, hearing well (not physically, but with the mind), an open mind for others, love for others and concentration. (This energy combines all these qualities).

. A subsoul has control of the conversation and directs her in conversations as a result of which she’s intensely open to the other person and listens and gives attention to the other person.

I’m diplomatic

. There is an energy that has the following qualities: weighing the pros and cons, looking at things from different perspectives, trying to see every point of view, listening to the arguments, making a decision that is acceptable to all parties, conveying it gently and tactfully to someone, wanting to be gentle and impartial, putting a negative point across very carefully, always wanting to pep up the other person’s self-esteem, also when expressing a lesser quality, not wanting to hurt anyone, delicacy, being alert to others’ sensitivities, never wanting to leave the other person with a negative feeling, wanting to make everyone feel that they are worthy of love, that they have value, that they are important.

. The subsoul responsible for this, is the same as in ‘I’m a good listener’.

Every day again I’m grateful for the relationship with my boyfriend

. There is an energy of awareness of what is there, of appreciation of the good things.

. There is a subsoul that perceives, that observes, that appreciates.

I can easily forgive people

. There is an energy of love for other people, of all-embracing love. Nothing is important, what happened is simply not important, we look at the way ahead.

. There is also an energy of forgiveness.

. A subsoul directs her to be understanding of others, to look at the viewpoint of others and to forgive.

I like to help other people

. There is an energy to love people, of love for people, to find an enormous satisfaction in someone else’s joy.

. There is a subsoul of love. The love she feels for people is the love this subsouls feels.

I can very well imagine the situation from the other person’s perspective, I’m very understanding

. There is an energy that enables her to detach from herself, that enables her to forget herself and to assume a new identity and to see something through the eyes of others (figuratively speaking), to be sympathetic towards others, and to understand their sorrow and their view.

. There is a subsoul of love, to understand, to forgive, of compassion, to be able to perceive the other person’s situation, to help.

I’m punctual in appointments

. There is an energy to show consideration for others.

. There is an energy for a sense of order, to be orderly, well-organized.

. There is a subsoul of time management.

. There is a subsoul to think in an orderly way, of time control.

I’m considerate of the people around me

. There is an energy for wanting to give, of love for others, to understand the situation of others and to try to relieve this where possible, to be able to give unconditionally and not to expect something in return.

. There is an energy of love.

. There is a subsoul of love, of understanding of others.

. There is a subsoul of giving, unconditional, never-ending love.

I keep my word, I comply with the law

. There is an energy to be straightforward, of honesty, integrity, consideration of other people’s feelings.

. There is a subsoul that is enormously honourable and that directs her in her actions. She experiences this as she herself who directs things.

I have self-discipline

. There is an energy of control, of self-control. The will (resulting from a subsoul) uses this energy in situations in which self-discipline is required.

. A subsoul with the quality of ‘the will’ makes use of the energy of ‘control’.

I can take the lead

. There is an energy of strength, assurance, to be able to give orders that have impact on others, to guide, to give direction, to be followed, to be obeyed, to have control over situations, of impact on others.

. There is a subsoul of strength that leads others, a knowledge how to deal with it, deciding and taking steps without hesitation, knowing what she wants, knowing which direction she has to go.

I can say ‘no’ when needed

. There is an energy to be sure of herself, of confidence, to know she has value.

. There is a subsoul of strength, of control over situations, of power over things.

I’m self-confident

. There is an energy that holds the following: confidence, I have value, I’m somebody, I’m important, I’m present, I stand here, I know what I want, what I do is good, I can do it.

. The subsoul that represents ‘the will’ makes use of the energy of ‘self-confidence’.

I do my work very well, I strive for perfection

. There is an energy of creation, perfection, workmanship and beauty.

. There is a subsoul of creation and beauty.

I have extensive general knowledge.

. There is an energy for interest, curiosity, to be able to assume various points of view.

. There is a subsoul for assimilating knowledge (the subsoul has the knowledge), of control over the brain when storing data in the brain.

Special things intrigue me, I’m curious

. There is an energy that equals: being very curious, being drawn to special things, being excited by the unknown, being prompted towards adventure and exciting things.  This energy makes life interesting, gives joy, gives a new dimension to life.

. A subsoul longs for new, exciting, adventurous things, wants to find new things and isn’t satisfied with the existing. This urge for adventure makes her head for new things, unknown territories. This subsoul wants to explore, wants to find, wants to look further.

I have a talent for writing

. There is an energy for a good power of expression, to be able to play with words and sentences, to be able to build up words and sentences that sound good, a sense of expressing something.

. A subsoul leads her to pick the right words from the information about a language which is stored in the brain, leads her in her choice of words and in structuring her sentences. This subsoul gives her flashes of inspiration, directs her writing completely. When Nancy writes, in fact it’s this subsoul that writes, but we perceive a subsoul as ourselves.

I have a talent for music

. There is an energy that I can’t describe, that is responsible for Nancy’s musical talent thanks to its presence.

. A subsoul directs her with regard to music, is responsible for her musical talent.

. . . → Read More: Patterns surrounding a person]]> The patterns are negative programmes in the subconscious mind that are responsible for every possible problem relating to health, personality, situations in life, aptitudes, … These programmes are situated in and around the human body in the form of matter and they can be removed by Linda Evans in the NPL healing.

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Visual representation of energies around a person as perceived by Linda Evans. The energies contain all kinds of qualities, abilities, are responsible for good fortune, health, favourable personality characteristics, ...
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The subconscious energies are responsible for everything that is good in life: the right truth, favourable personality traits, good fortune, happiness, talents, ...
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Energies are present around the soul of man and animal. They are responsible for everything that is good in life: love, success, good health, affluence, ...
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